addictive love || 19.12.06,8:07 PM

no, this is no movie title.
this is my reality.

even though i know that this love was not reciprocal and that in the end it would be me who's getting hurt.

I have no idea why. Maybe i just hung on to it just because he's a very amazing guy, handsome, brilliant, but alo selfishly amazing.

Usually, I cannot live a day without having to hear his voice. Or will have tummy cramps if I havent read his short messages.

- couldn't think straight
- suddenly want to reduce your weight
- suddenly wanting to look marvelous every day
- spending sky-high monthly phone cost
- suddenly wanting to stay home and do the dishes
- et cetera

i fuckingly dont know! I'm having this illness, for God's sake! I need professional help. I wanted to get away from it, from his everything [smells, sight, hands, shadows].


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might these be useful for you! ;)
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1. Guys don't actually look after good-looking girls. They prefer neat and presentable girls.
2. Guys hate flirts.
3. A guy can like you for a minute, and then forget you afterwards.
4. When a guy says he doesn't understand you, it simply means you're not thinking the way he is.
5. "Are you doing something?" or "Have you eaten already?" are the first usual questions a guy asks on the phone just to get out from stammering.
6. Guys may be flirting around all day but before they go to sleep, they always think about the girl they truly care about.
7. When a guy really likes you, he'll disregard all your bad characteristics.
8. Guys go crazy over a girl's smile.
9. Guys will do anything just to get the girl's attention.
10. Guys hate it when you talk about your ex-boyfriend.
11. When guys want to meet your parents. Let them.
12. Guys want to tell you many things but they can't. And they sure have one habit to gain courage and spirit to tell you many things and it is drinking!
13. Guys cry!!!
14. Don't provoke the guy to heat up. Believe me. He will.
15. Guys can never dream and hope too much.
16. Guys usually try hard to get the girl who has dumped them, and this makes it harder for them to accept their defeat.
17. When you touch a guy's heart, there's no turning back.
18. Giving a guy a hanging message like "You know what?!..uh...never mind!" would make him jump to a conclusion that is far from what you are thinking.
19. Guys go crazy when girls touch their hands.
20. Guys are good flatterers when courting but they usually stammer when they talk to a girl they really like.
21. When a guy makes a prolonged "umm" or makes any excuses when you are asking him to do you a favor, he's actually saying that he doesn't like you and he can't lay down the card for you.
22. When a girl says "no", a guy hears it as "try again tomorrow."
23. You have to tell a guy what you really want before he gets the message clearly.
24. Guys hate gays!
25. Guys love their moms.
26. A guy would sacrifice his money for lunch just to get you a couple of roses.
27. A guy often thinks about the girl who likes him. But this doesn't mean that the guy likes her.
28 You can never understand him unless you listen to him.
29. If a guy tells you he loves you once in a lifetime. He does.
30. Beware. Guys can make gossips scatter through half of the face of the earth faster than girls can.
31. Like Eve, girls are guys’ weaknesses.
32. Guys are very open about themselves.
33. It's good to test a guy first before you believe him. But don't let him wait that long.
34. No guy is bad when he is courting
35. Guys hate it when their clothes get dirty. Even a small dot.
36. Guys really admire girls that they like even if they're not that much pretty.
37. Your best friend, whom your boyfriend seeks help from about his problems with you may end up being admired by your boyfriend.
38. If a guy tells you about his problems, he just needs someone to listen to him. You don't need to give advice.
39. A usual act that proves that the guy likes you is when he teases you.
40. A guy finds ways to keep you off from linking with someone else.
41. Guys love girls with brains more than girls in miniskirts.
42. Guys try to find the stuffed toy a girl wants but would unluckily get the wrong one.
43. Guys virtually brag about anything.
44. Guys cannot keep secrets that girls tell them.
45. Guys think too much.
46. Guys' fantasies are unlimited.
47. Girls' height doesn't really matter to a guy but her weight does!
48. Guys tend to get serious with their relationship and become too possessive. So watch out girls!!!
49. When a girl makes the boy suffer during courtship, it would be hard for him to let go of that girl.
50. It's not easy for a guy to let go of his girlfriend after they broke up especially when they've been together for 3 years or more.
51. You have to tell a guy what you really want before getting involved with that guy.
52. A guy has to experience rejection, because if he's too-good-never-been-busted, never been in love and hurt, he won't be matured and grow up.
53. When an unlikable circumstance comes, guys blame themselves a lot more than girls do. They could even hurt themselves physically.
54. Guys have strong passion to change but have weak will power.
55. Guys are tigers in their peer groups but become tamed pussycats with their girlfriends.
56. When a guy pretends to be calm, check if he's sweating. You'll probably see that he is nervous.
57. When a guy says he is going crazy about the girl. He really is.
58. When a guy asks you to leave him alone, he's just actually saying "Please come and listen to me"
59. Guys don't really have final decisions.
60. When a guy loves you, bring out the best in him.
61. If a guy starts to talk seriously, listen to him.
62. If a guy has been kept shut or silent, say something.
63. Guys believe that there's no such thing as love at first sight, but court the girls anyway and then realize at the end that he is wrong.
64. Guys like femininity not feebleness.
65. Guys don't like girls who punch harder than they do.
66. A guy may instantly know if the girl likes him but can never be sure unless the girl tells him.
67. A guy would waste his time over video games and basketball, the way a girl would do over her romance novels and make-ups.v 68. Guys love girls who can cook or bake.
69. Guys like girls who are like their moms. No kidding!
70. A guy has more problems than you can see with your naked eyes.v 71. A guy's friend knows everything about him. Use this to your advantage.
72. Don't be a snob. Guys may easily give up on the first sign of rejection.v 73. Don't be biased. Try loving a guy without prejudice and you'll be surprised.v 74. Girls who bathe in their eau de perfumes do more repelling than attracting guys.
75. Guys are more talkative than girls are especially when the topic is about girls.
76. Guys don't comprehend the statement "Get lost" too well.
77. Guys really think that girls are strange and have unpredictable decisions but still love them more.
78. When a guy gives a crooked or pretentious grin at your jokes, he finds them offending and he just tried to be polite.
79. Guys don't care about how shiny their shoes are unlike girls.
80. Guys tend to generalize about girls but once they get to know them,they'll realize they're wrong.
81. Any guy can handle his problems all by his own. He's just too stubborn to deal with it.
82. Guys find it so objectionable when a girl swears.v 83. Guys' weakest point is at the knee.
84. When a problem arises, a guy usually keeps himself cool but is already thinking of a way out.
85. When a guy is conscious of his looks, it shows he is not good at fixing things.
86. When a guy looks at you, either he's amazed of you or he's criticizing you.
87. When you catch him cheating on you and he asks for a second chance, give it to him. But when you catch him again and he asks for another chance, ignore him.
88. If a guy lets you go, he really loves you.
89. If you have a boyfriend, and your boy best friend always glances at you and it obviously shows that he is jealous whenever you're with your boyfriend, all I can say is your boy best friend loves you more than your boyfriend does.
90. Guys learn from experience not from the romance books that girls read and take as their basis of experience.
91. You can tell if a guy is really hurt or in pain when he cries in front of you!
92. If a guy suddenly asks you for a date, ask him first why.
93. When a guy says he can't sleep if he doesn't hear your voice even just for one night, hang up. He also tells that to another girl. He only flatters you and sometimes makes fun of you.
94. You can truly say that a guy has good intentions if you see him praying sometimes.
95. Guys seek for advice not from a guy but from a girl.
96. Girls are allowed to touch boys' things. Not their hair!
97. If a guy says you're beautiful, that guy likes you.
98. Guys hate girls who overreact.
99. Guys love you more than you love them if they are serious in your relationships.

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the cooking habit || 16.12.06,11:39 AM

Untuk ULTAH gw kemaren, Anne dan Ajeng menghadiahkan sebuah buku yang sebenernya gw pesen sih... Cuma mereka prefer it as a gift on my bday.

Jadi, buku ini judulnya adalah The Backpacker's Field Manual. Oh jelas gw membutuhkan buku seperti ini. Sebab, kami semua [termasuk gw] senaaang sekali dengan backpacking dan juga wilderness backpacking. Di buku ini pada bab yang menjelaskan ttg memasak di alam bebas – gw menemukan hal2 yang ternyata sudah tidak asing lagi.


1. you need to decide if cooking is a group task or a personal task.
Pasti! Ini wajib dilakukan karena kalo yang masak sendiri2, maka kita akan beda2 menunya. Tapi, kalo masaknya per kelompok, yaah… jauh lebih simple, karena bisa terjadi pembagian bawaan di dalam carrier masing2 anggota kelompok. Rata2 kegiatan kunjungan situs KAMA FIB UI lebih suka bikin acara masak untuk kelompok, yang jelas lebih praktis.

2. On short trips, a meal-by-meal menu often works best.
Jelas juga! Tau gak, menu yang paling sering gw pake adalah: tempe oreg, capcay, sop, tumis2an, kornet, mi instant [yang bisa dikreasiin jadi pizza mie], bumbu dasar merah [untuk bikin nasgor]. Kadang2 kalo lagi banyak duit yaaah, beli rendang ato jambal roti dikit.

3. Proper menu planning means less weight to carry, less wasted food, and less garbage to pack out.
Yap, benar! Kalo bisa, bahan makanan yang cuma seminimal mungkin, tetep bisa dibuat jadi beberapa MENU dan mengenyangkan! Lagian, apa sih yang ga mengenyangkan di lereng bukit sana, ketika elo2 udah pada capek dan lemah....!? hehe... KOPI dan NIKOTIN tentunya agak sedikit membantu - sebagai dessert. Kadang2 malah gw suka bawa tepung dan bikinin pancake buat anak2 yang laen. ;) Oh, Pangguyangan!

4. oversalt
Huahahaha... kata2 ini bikin gw ngakak. Beberapa kejadian pernah bikin kita jadi membulan-bulani temen yang dapet giliran masak, dan ternyata : KEASINAN! "Woooy! mo kawin ya, loe!?" haha... Gw juga pernah kok lagi bego masak, trus akhirnya masakan gw semuanya keasinan. Jadilah gw juga dibulan-bulani oleh temen2 gw.

5. do not pack fuel near food!
Apalagi meletakkannya di dapur, di sebelah botol air mineral! Pengalaman mengajarkan gw ketika seorang teman itu masuk k dapur dan mengira botol berisi spiritus adalah air mineral! Yuuuk.... dia minum aja itu spiritus, sementara abis itu mencak-mencak sendiri, "Siapa yang naro spiritus di botol A**a?!" Yeee.... mas! Salah siapa, nggak nanya penjaga dapurnya... Wong, kalo pen minum juga tinggal minta kook... Untungnya lagi, para petenda di luar ada yang bawa susu kotak. huhuhuhuhuhuhwaaaaaaaaahahahaha.... gila, gw masih inget muka tuh orang!!!

6. measure twice, cook once
Teori praktis ini mungkin sesuai ama apa yang gw dan Dai anut: "yang penting kuantitas, BUKAN kualitas." karena, mikir gmana caranya supaya makanan yang gw masak hari ini masih bisa dimakan nanti siang ato nanti malem. Perjalanan dari satu situs k situs laen bukannya nggak bikin capek loh. Kadang2 ada orang2 prasejarah yang nggak mikir bikin situsnya di ujung sono, dan tetangganya ada di ujung yang sebelah sana lagi! Nah, gmana mensiasati supaya begitu sampe di tujuan, kita2 g repot masak dan ngluarin Trangia lagi? Masak lah pada pagi harinya, untuk 2 kali makan! ;)

Semuanya itu cuma buat urusan perut yaaaw! biar tetap ada tenaga untuk bertugas di situs. Uuuuh.... untung gw udah senior sekarang. Bisa tinggal dateng, masak, dan makan. Dulu? mesti ada deskripsi lapangan, gambar, bikin laporan, malamnya presentasi, trus mbenerin laporan -- baru deh tidur atow kongkow2 dulu...

gw dan dai memasak berkelompok, Lbk Cibedug, 2005 angkatan 2000 memasak malam bersama, Pangguyangan 2004 hore! nasinya udah jadi!! mass cooking, Pggyg 2004 cooking light, Ciarca, Pggyg 2004 just for the small amount of ppl with huge appetite rully hated the food!! *hahaha* yang agak modern dikit...

Itulah... cooking habits kami - para KAMAwan dan KAMAwati, Arkeologi FIB UI kalo sedang di lapangan dan atau jalan2.

next time, topiknya laen lagi yaw! ;)

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