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addictive love

2006-12-19T20:07:00.000+07:00

no, this is no movie title.
this is my reality.

I AM ADDICTED TO LOVE.
even though i know that this love was not reciprocal and that in the end it would be me who's getting hurt.

WHY CHOSE THE ADDICTIVE LOVE?
I have no idea why. Maybe i just hung on to it just because he's a very amazing guy, handsome, brilliant, but alo selfishly amazing.

WHAT ARE THE INDICATIONS?
Usually, I cannot live a day without having to hear his voice. Or will have tummy cramps if I havent read his short messages.

MINOR SYMPTOMS:
- couldn't think straight
- suddenly want to reduce your weight
- suddenly wanting to look marvelous every day
- spending sky-high monthly phone cost
- suddenly wanting to stay home and do the dishes
- et cetera

HOW TO GET OVER IT?
i fuckingly dont know! I'm having this illness, for God's sake! I need professional help. I wanted to get away from it, from his everything [smells, sight, hands, shadows].

HELP!

99 SECRETS GIRLS HAVE TO KNOW ABOUT GUYS

2006-12-17T21:08:00.000+07:00

might these be useful for you! ;)
found it on fukkad.com

1. Guys don't actually look after good-looking girls. They prefer neat and presentable girls.
2. Guys hate flirts.
3. A guy can like you for a minute, and then forget you afterwards.
4. When a guy says he doesn't understand you, it simply means you're not thinking the way he is.
5. "Are you doing something?" or "Have you eaten already?" are the first usual questions a guy asks on the phone just to get out from stammering.
6. Guys may be flirting around all day but before they go to sleep, they always think about the girl they truly care about.
7. When a guy really likes you, he'll disregard all your bad characteristics.
8. Guys go crazy over a girl's smile.
9. Guys will do anything just to get the girl's attention.
10. Guys hate it when you talk about your ex-boyfriend.
11. When guys want to meet your parents. Let them.
12. Guys want to tell you many things but they can't. And they sure have one habit to gain courage and spirit to tell you many things and it is drinking!
13. Guys cry!!!
14. Don't provoke the guy to heat up. Believe me. He will.
15. Guys can never dream and hope too much.
16. Guys usually try hard to get the girl who has dumped them, and this makes it harder for them to accept their defeat.
17. When you touch a guy's heart, there's no turning back.
18. Giving a guy a hanging message like "You know what?!..uh...never mind!" would make him jump to a conclusion that is far from what you are thinking.
19. Guys go crazy when girls touch their hands.
20. Guys are good flatterers when courting but they usually stammer when they talk to a girl they really like.
21. When a guy makes a prolonged "umm" or makes any excuses when you are asking him to do you a favor, he's actually saying that he doesn't like you and he can't lay down the card for you.
22. When a girl says "no", a guy hears it as "try again tomorrow."
23. You have to tell a guy what you really want before he gets the message clearly.
24. Guys hate gays!
25. Guys love their moms.
26. A guy would sacrifice his money for lunch just to get you a couple of roses.
27. A guy often thinks about the girl who likes him. But this doesn't mean that the guy likes her.
28 You can never understand him unless you listen to him.
29. If a guy tells you he loves you once in a lifetime. He does.
30. Beware. Guys can make gossips scatter through half of the face of the earth faster than girls can.
31. Like Eve, girls are guys’ weaknesses.
32. Guys are very open about themselves.
33. It's good to test a guy first before you believe him. But don't let him wait that long.
34. No guy is bad when he is courting
35. Guys hate it when their clothes get dirty. Even a small dot.
36. Guys really admire girls that they like even if they're not that much pretty.
37. Your best friend, whom your boyfriend seeks help from about his problems with you may end up being admired by your boyfriend.
38. If a guy tells you about his problems, he just needs someone to listen to him. You don't need to give advice.
39. A usual act that proves that the guy likes you is when he teases you.
40. A guy finds ways to keep you off from linking with someone else.
41. Guys love girls with brains more than girls in miniskirts.
42. Guys try to find the stuffed toy a girl wants but would unluckily get the wrong one.
43. Guys virtually brag about anything.
44. Guys cannot keep secrets that girls tell them.
45. Guys think too much.
46. Guys' fantasies are unlimited.
47. Girls' height doesn't really matter to a guy but her weight does!
48. Guys tend to get serious with their relationship and become too possessive. So watch out girls!!!
49. When a girl makes the boy suffer during courtship, it would be hard for him to let go of that girl.
50. It's not easy for a guy to let go of his girlfriend after they broke up especially when they've been together for 3 years or more.
51. You have to tell a guy what you really want before getting involved with that guy.
52. A guy has to experience rejection, because if he's too-good-never-been-busted, never been in love and hurt, he won't be matured and grow up.
53. When an unlikable circumstance comes, guys blame themselves a lot more than girls do. They could even hurt themselves physically.
54. Guys have strong passion to change but have weak will power.
55. Guys are tigers in their peer groups but become tamed pussycats with their girlfriends.
56. When a guy pretends to be calm, check if he's sweating. You'll probably see that he is nervous.
57. When a guy says he is going crazy about the girl. He really is.
58. When a guy asks you to leave him alone, he's just actually saying "Please come and listen to me"
59. Guys don't really have final decisions.
60. When a guy loves you, bring out the best in him.
61. If a guy starts to talk seriously, listen to him.
62. If a guy has been kept shut or silent, say something.
63. Guys believe that there's no such thing as love at first sight, but court the girls anyway and then realize at the end that he is wrong.
64. Guys like femininity not feebleness.
65. Guys don't like girls who punch harder than they do.
66. A guy may instantly know if the girl likes him but can never be sure unless the girl tells him.
67. A guy would waste his time over video games and basketball, the way a girl would do over her romance novels and make-ups.v 68. Guys love girls who can cook or bake.
69. Guys like girls who are like their moms. No kidding!
70. A guy has more problems than you can see with your naked eyes.v 71. A guy's friend knows everything about him. Use this to your advantage.
72. Don't be a snob. Guys may easily give up on the first sign of rejection.v 73. Don't be biased. Try loving a guy without prejudice and you'll be surprised.v 74. Girls who bathe in their eau de perfumes do more repelling than attracting guys.
75. Guys are more talkative than girls are especially when the topic is about girls.
76. Guys don't comprehend the statement "Get lost" too well.
77. Guys really think that girls are strange and have unpredictable decisions but still love them more.
78. When a guy gives a crooked or pretentious grin at your jokes, he finds them offending and he just tried to be polite.
79. Guys don't care about how shiny their shoes are unlike girls.
80. Guys tend to generalize about girls but once they get to know them,they'll realize they're wrong.
81. Any guy can handle his problems all by his own. He's just too stubborn to deal with it.
82. Guys find it so objectionable when a girl swears.v 83. Guys' weakest point is at the knee.
84. When a problem arises, a guy usually keeps himself cool but is already thinking of a way out.
85. When a guy is conscious of his looks, it shows he is not good at fixing things.
86. When a guy looks at you, either he's amazed of you or he's criticizing you.
87. When you catch him cheating on you and he asks for a second chance, give it to him. But when you catch him again and he asks for another chance, ignore him.
88. If a guy lets you go, he really loves you.
89. If you have a boyfriend, and your boy best friend always glances at you and it obviously shows that he is jealous whenever you're with your boyfriend, all I can say is your boy best friend loves you more than your boyfriend does.
90. Guys learn from experience not from the romance books that girls read and take as their basis of experience.
91. You can tell if a guy is really hurt or in pain when he cries in front of you!
92. If a guy suddenly asks you for a date, ask him first why.
93. When a guy says he can't sleep if he doesn't hear your voice even just for one night, hang up. He also tells that to another girl. He only flatters you and sometimes makes fun of you.
94. You can truly say that a guy has good intentions if you see him praying sometimes.
95. Guys seek for advice not from a guy but from a girl.
96. Girls are allowed to touch boys' things. Not their hair!
97. If a guy says you're beautiful, that guy likes you.
98. Guys hate girls who overreact.
99. Guys love you more than you love them if they are serious in your relationships.

the cooking habit

2006-12-16T11:39:00.000+07:00

Untuk ULTAH gw kemaren, Anne dan Ajeng menghadiahkan sebuah buku yang sebenernya gw pesen sih... Cuma mereka prefer it as a gift on my bday.

Jadi, buku ini judulnya adalah The Backpacker's Field Manual. Oh jelas gw membutuhkan buku seperti ini. Sebab, kami semua [termasuk gw] senaaang sekali dengan backpacking dan juga wilderness backpacking. Di buku ini pada bab yang menjelaskan ttg memasak di alam bebas – gw menemukan hal2 yang ternyata sudah tidak asing lagi.

Misalnya:

1. you need to decide if cooking is a group task or a personal task.
Pasti! Ini wajib dilakukan karena kalo yang masak sendiri2, maka kita akan beda2 menunya. Tapi, kalo masaknya per kelompok, yaah… jauh lebih simple, karena bisa terjadi pembagian bawaan di dalam carrier masing2 anggota kelompok. Rata2 kegiatan kunjungan situs KAMA FIB UI lebih suka bikin acara masak untuk kelompok, yang jelas lebih praktis.

2. On short trips, a meal-by-meal menu often works best.
Jelas juga! Tau gak, menu yang paling sering gw pake adalah: tempe oreg, capcay, sop, tumis2an, kornet, mi instant [yang bisa dikreasiin jadi pizza mie], bumbu dasar merah [untuk bikin nasgor]. Kadang2 kalo lagi banyak duit yaaah, beli rendang ato jambal roti dikit.

3. Proper menu planning means less weight to carry, less wasted food, and less garbage to pack out.
Yap, benar! Kalo bisa, bahan makanan yang cuma seminimal mungkin, tetep bisa dibuat jadi beberapa MENU dan mengenyangkan! Lagian, apa sih yang ga mengenyangkan di lereng bukit sana, ketika elo2 udah pada capek dan lemah....!? hehe... KOPI dan NIKOTIN tentunya agak sedikit membantu - sebagai dessert. Kadang2 malah gw suka bawa tepung dan bikinin pancake buat anak2 yang laen. ;) Oh, Pangguyangan!

4. oversalt
Huahahaha... kata2 ini bikin gw ngakak. Beberapa kejadian pernah bikin kita jadi membulan-bulani temen yang dapet giliran masak, dan ternyata : KEASINAN! "Woooy! mo kawin ya, loe!?" haha... Gw juga pernah kok lagi bego masak, trus akhirnya masakan gw semuanya keasinan. Jadilah gw juga dibulan-bulani oleh temen2 gw.

5. do not pack fuel near food!
Apalagi meletakkannya di dapur, di sebelah botol air mineral! Pengalaman mengajarkan gw ketika seorang teman itu masuk k dapur dan mengira botol berisi spiritus adalah air mineral! Yuuuk.... dia minum aja itu spiritus, sementara abis itu mencak-mencak sendiri, "Siapa yang naro spiritus di botol A**a?!" Yeee.... mas! Salah siapa, nggak nanya penjaga dapurnya... Wong, kalo pen minum juga tinggal minta kook... Untungnya lagi, para petenda di luar ada yang bawa susu kotak. huhuhuhuhuhuhwaaaaaaaaahahahaha.... gila, gw masih inget muka tuh orang!!!

6. measure twice, cook once
Teori praktis ini mungkin sesuai ama apa yang gw dan Dai anut: "yang penting kuantitas, BUKAN kualitas." karena, mikir gmana caranya supaya makanan yang gw masak hari ini masih bisa dimakan nanti siang ato nanti malem. Perjalanan dari satu situs k situs laen bukannya nggak bikin capek loh. Kadang2 ada orang2 prasejarah yang nggak mikir bikin situsnya di ujung sono, dan tetangganya ada di ujung yang sebelah sana lagi! Nah, gmana mensiasati supaya begitu sampe di tujuan, kita2 g repot masak dan ngluarin Trangia lagi? Masak lah pada pagi harinya, untuk 2 kali makan! ;)

Semuanya itu cuma buat urusan perut yaaaw! biar tetap ada tenaga untuk bertugas di situs. Uuuuh.... untung gw udah senior sekarang. Bisa tinggal dateng, masak, dan makan. Dulu? mesti ada deskripsi lapangan, gambar, bikin laporan, malamnya presentasi, trus mbenerin laporan -- baru deh tidur atow kongkow2 dulu...

Itulah... cooking habits kami - para KAMAwan dan KAMAwati, Arkeologi FIB UI kalo sedang di lapangan dan atau jalan2.

next time, topiknya laen lagi yaw! ;)

i'm a Ravenclaw! winks

2006-12-15T21:53:00.000+07:00

I'm a Ravenclaw!

dapet ini dari blognya mei. huhuhu.... gw fikir, dengan segala kelicikan yang gw punya, gw bakal masuk Slytherin... ternyata Ravenclaw sudah berbaik hati menerima gw jadi anggotanya. ;)

just click on the banner, if you want to take the test yourself.

it's free

L o Ve test from diTTa

2006-12-15T08:55:00.000+07:00

Love Test i took from diTTa's blog just a while ago.

sebenernya ini kaya kokology yang waktu itu Abi pernah nanyain k gw... cuma ternyata pertanyaannya agak beda getoh. Coba, yaw:

1.You have ten roses in ur hand, red and white ones. Which is which, nine white out of 1 red or nine red out of 1 white?
- 9 red 1 white

2.You have a glass of water in front of you, will you drink it full or half?
- drink it half

3.You enter his house, there laid a bunch of flowers, where will you put it? beside the window or on the bed?
- on the bed

4. You're walking down the forest, you encountered a snake, will you let it pass or get over it?
- get over it - sebenernya lebih tepat menjerit trus lemes di tempat

5. You're outside his/her house, will you knock or will you call him/her by name?
- knock

6. You're facing with the mirror, suddenly a person you dont know appears, what
will you say? what are you doing here or who are you?
- who are you?

7. You're eating something, u were too hungry a kid begged you for food, will you give the food or money?
- money

8. No.of letters that are on ur mind.
- 3

9. What will you sketch, a face, nature or cartoons?
- nature

10. Pick one color, lavander or black.
- black

11. Moon or star?
- moon

12. Sunset or sunrise?
- sunset

13. Landscape or waters?
- landscape

14. Math or English?
- english

15. If you worked in a charity group, who do you help KIDS or ELDERS?
- kids

ANSWERS

1. nine red out of 1 white- YOU LOVE WHOLE- HEARTEDLY,and left a little for yourself.
2. drint it half- you're scared to give your all.
3. on bed- you are not scared to show your affection
4. get over it- you wanted to be confrontational to get closures.
5. knock- you are a sensitive person.
6. who are you- you still didn't find him/her... u just thought you did.
7. money- you always have something on your mind.
8. that person is someone you like. he's or she special.
9. nature- you're a worrier
10. black- romantic.
11. moon- you love deeply..
12. Sunset- you're cynical in love
13. Landscape- you're jolly
14. ENGLISH- you're missing someone..
15.KIDS- you don't care care if he/she doesnt love you back the same way you did

huwaah.... beda juga hasilnya! makasih ya, diTTa! ;)

p e r i H a L c i N t A

2006-12-14T23:21:00.000+07:00

maaf bila melupakanmu
satu hal yang telah terbiasa
ku berjanji tak kan berbuat
satu kesalahan yang sama

dan sedihku
tak kuizinkan
membawa semua kebahagiaan

terkutuk bila aku
melepaskan cintamu itu
hanyalah satu rasa
yang harus aku ungkap : i love you so!!!! *teriak*

ingin aku melupakanmu
berhenti tak membayangkanmu!
satu hari saja kucoba
tapi memang ku tlah terbiasa

-- huuh, menemukan lagu ini lagi di mp3 player gw, membuat mengingat2 masa lalu yang emang harusnya udah ditinggal di pojokan jembatan Baduy yang ituh! Knapa sih, ini orang selalu muncul di depan mata gw ketika gw nggak mau ketemu dia, nggak mau mikirin dia lagi, nggak mau hidup gw diwarnai oleh tawanya dia lagi? ketika gw udah nemuin orang lain - yang gw coba jadi penggantinya - eh, dia malah nongol lagi, tanpa rasa bersalah, dengan permatanya dan mencoret2 hari gw dengan renyah tawa yang dulu gw nikmatin bersama dia!?

-- coba, ya!!! perihal cinta gw bwt dia emang gak pernah beres. yang baru bukan brarti nggantiin yang lama. mereka BUKAN spareparts! Satu dan yang lainnya tidak saling melengkapi, tapi mereka tak bisa saling melengkapi. Anehnya, bayangan dia nggak pernah bisa nutupin bayangan yang satu lagi. Bukannya gw gak bisa ngelupain dia, tapi mungkin gw gak mau.

-- ah! apakah gw akan mengecewakan si satu lagi yang [kalau] dia membaca ini? maaf ya, sayang. tapi kalo berbohong ke diri sendiri ternyata jauh lebih berat dibandingkan mesti bohong k kamu.

-- masih suka mikir: knapa bukan gw yang duduk di sebelah dia hari ini. Knapa sih, gw g pernah mrasa puas dengan keadaan yang udah gw punya sekarang. Jelas2 gw punya sesuatu yang LEBIH dari segalanya. Apakah itu artinya gw masih manusia - dengan selalu merasa nggak cukup?

-- perihal: cinta

berakhirnya Paris

2006-12-14T22:43:00.000+07:00

Paris sudah lewat.
mimpi2 ttg paris, juga lewat.

kNapAAAAaaH??

hmhm... *ktawa sarkastik*
tanya aja ama Paris.
yang pasti... semua sekarang jadi abu2 lagi
bwt gw...

GaK tau deh, buat yang laEn.
tapi yAng paSti, buat gw iYa...

buat laanii: maaf y, aku ndak pake template dari kamu,
sebab>> dari imel yang kamu kirim, aku tdk bisa liat apa2 tuh di templatenya.
image-nya pun tak ada... mungkin next time, bisa diupgrade lagih.. hehe
tengkiyu btw... ;)

"i am 50% girlish"

2006-12-14T09:15:00.000+07:00

Answer these questions:

[x] you wear lip gloss.
[x] you shop
[ ] you wear eyeliner
[x] you buy different colored shirts
[x] you wear halters and tube tops

total: 4

[x] you dont like shopping at hot topic
[ ] you wear the color pink
[ ] you consider cheerleading a sport
[ ] you hate wearing the color black
[ ] you love hanging at the mall

total: 1

[x] you like getting manicures and/or pedicures
[x] you wear jewelery
[ ] skirts are a part of your wardrobe
[ ] you take a long time doing your hair
[ ]shopping is one of your favorite hobbies

total: 2

[x] you hate the movie star wars
[x] you cry in movies
[ ] you are/were in cheerleading, gymnastics, or dance
[ ] it takes you more than 1/2 hour to get dressed and put on other accesories
[x] you smile a lot more than u should

total: 3

Add them up, multiply them by 5, and
post as "i am 50% girlish"

Jakarta Pet Expo 2006

2006-12-13T09:04:00.000+07:00

Hadiri dan ikuti Jakarta Pet Expo 2006 memperebutkan total hadiah senilai Rp.17,5 juta yang akan dilaksanakan pada :

Waktu Pelaksanaan :
13 – 17 Desember 2006
Pukul : 11.00 - 20.00 WIB

Tempat Pelaksanaan :
Jakarta City Center (JaCC) Hyperstore
Lantai Dasar, Blok E
Lokasi: dibelakang Bundaran HI (Hotel Indonesia) & Plaza Indonesia

hihihihi... gw skrg demen bgt ama hewan2 lucu nan imoet yang biasa dijual oleh untuk jadi peliaraan org. knp? krn mereka berbulu dan mrk lucu2....
Tristan dan Isolde???

uh! mereka sehaaaaaaaaaaat sekali! demenannya aerobik di wastafel gw setiap kali gw sedang menguras bowl kesayangan mereka. udah gt makannya lahap pula! sehari bisa ngabisin 12 butir pellet. seneng deh liatnya.... seneng juga liat bowl itu kotor dengan tokai2 mereka. hehe...
yang bener adalah: gw nggak bosen tuh nguras bowl mereka, and i dont find it diffcult yaw, untuk merawat mereka.... kmrn, gw tinggal 2 hari k baduy, toh mereka masih sehat2 ajah.. ehhee...

Trachemys scripta elegans

2006-12-03T17:55:00.000+07:00

hehe....
itu adalah nama Latin dari red-ear slider which is also disebut juga dengan kura-kura brazil yang banyak dijual di Barito.
Hari ini, gw membeli sepasang yang kemudian gw anugerahi nama Tristan dan Isolde (becuz i really like the names) di pameran Hortikultura di TMII.
Nah... sebenernya gak berharap mereka bertahan lama sih... cuma, gw pen tau aja.. apakah gw sanggup merawat mereka di sela2 kesibukan gw sebagai perempuan carrier...

doakan saja Tristan dan Isolde betah di rumah baru mereka.

aku ultaah

2006-11-28T10:17:00.000+07:00

...

hehe, seneng deh.
akhirnya gw mncapai angka 22 di kuweh yang kemaren gw potong bersama Dinda di kancut.
emang ge tahun ini g pengen nraktir anak2 arkeo do kafe or such things. Gw cuma pengen, mereka ada, dan berbagi kebahagiaan sama gw... Jadilah gw membawa DUA loyang cake dan menikmatinya bersama anak2 arkeo di kancut. Udah dua loyang tapi masih juga ada yang gak kebagian.. huuuh... dasar, emang g ada makanan yang selamet dari mulutnya anak arkeyooo!

cuma, orang bermakna bwt hati gw belom dateng waktu gw motong kuweh bersama dinda. Dia dateng beberapa jam setelah itu. Bukannya gw berencana ngasih first cake ke dia juga siiih... tapi, i just want him to be there.... dan i think i made him mad juga deh. hehhe.... gpp, ttp sayang kamu kok! *winks*

hummmm

2006-11-24T22:43:00.000+07:00

it's been a looooong week.
1. gw dan tim tarik tambang arkeyo masuk final hari senin 27 nov. that is my bday! semoga kami bisa menang melawan prodi sejarah! yiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiihaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!
2. tas gw sempet ilang dan bikin gw ketar ketir, ternyata jatoh di deket tukang bakpaw Pdk Gede, dan tadi pas gw k sana, ternyata masih disimpenin ama dia. ihhhh baik banggeeets! mana g ada barang yang ilang pula!!! ;)
3. komputer gw mulai menggila lagi neeeeh.... tanda2nya minta di upgrade kali yaw?!
4. capek ah, gw besok bekerja di museum sejarah... pagi banget pula! :S

JGTC h-3

2006-11-16T21:58:00.000+07:00

hm.
bisa dipastikan JGTC tahun ini bwt gw akan sepi.
menyedihkaaaan sekali.

- mau egois -
sekarang, giliran gw mau bersenang2, semua temen2 gw punya kesibukan masing2.
ntar [ato kmaren2], giliran gw nggak pengen bersenang2 [ato harus serius RKA], mereka yang protes kok gw gak mau diajak bersenang2.... egh, menyebalkan!

tau ah.... emangnya gw gak bisa apa k JGTC sendirian!?
-pen marah deh-

bodo, ya, kalo ada yang tersinggung dg entry gw yang ini. skali2 boleh doong, gw egois mikirin diri gw sendiri!! dari kemaren, kynya gw mikirin org mulu!

the word : SECRET

2006-11-13T12:46:00.000+07:00

it's hard to keep a secret amongst the community of archaeology.
why?
because everyone is talking and talking to each other, and almost always include you
or your secrets within the conversation.
i have been having difficulties on keeping mine, and i bet i am not the only one.
even though you're trying hard not to tell anyone, but they somehow manage to find out about things that wasnt supposed
to come out to the surface.

the book of secrecy is not an insurance of your secret's safety.
because when they found your book, that means the end of the world for you.
and you cannot even trust your very own friend.
they might talk, behind your back, and you wouldnt even know it.

i talk to.
i enjoy talking with my fellas.
but when it comes to my own secrets, i fell in silence.
or at least i tried.
or i when decided to talk, i lied.
why?
the ability to analyze amongst the student of archaeology is unbearable.
they're so good at it, because they spent one whole fucking semester to study how to analyze something.
and it seems like they're born with it.

something meaningful for me was supposed to be kept from public.
but eventually, i brought it up coincidentally and that satisfy them even better.

the word secret is not available on the archaeology's dictionary.
there are no secret.
everybody knows everything about everyone.
after you talk, whether you regret it or you're also relieved to have let it out, it's all in your shoulders.
nobody's talking resposibility of what comes out of your mouth.

they just enjoy listening to it,
and to splintered the words, mixing it with a few spices to get it hotter, then watch what will happen.

that also - my friend...
forced me to redefine the definition of friend.
one of my best said, "by then you'll recognize who's your real friend is."
my whole point of view about friends changed.
not trying to make myself right or a victim here.
it shook me up from the dream about having a friend to laugh or to cry with.
a friend is indeed more than just that.
especially when you're in archaeology.
you just never know.

there is no word such as SECRET.

and once again.....

2006-11-13T01:22:00.000+07:00

the test revealed that :

You've Got It Bad For Him

For better or worse, you've always got your friend on the brain.
If he digs you too, this could be a very good thing.
If not, at least you tried! You've got to make a move and find out.
You might discover that he's been pining away for you as well.

Are You Crushing on Him (And Don't Even Know It)?

huuuuuuuuuuuuuh.....sebal!

2006-11-13T01:16:00.000+07:00

hasil tes memutuskan :

You Are More Than Friends

If you and your guy friend haven't hooked up yet, you will soon
This guy is attracted to you and even cares about you deeply
He has incredible boyfriend potential - as long as you dig him back
So what are you waiting for? Make a move! He's probably just too shy!

Is He More Than a Friend?

181 questions of me

2006-11-10T13:01:00.000+07:00

(1) What is your favorite pastime?
>> medieval

(2) What's your favorite type of music?
>> jazz

(3) What do you spend most your time doing?
>> thinking

(4) When you're home alone, what do you do?
>> watching cables, knitting, sleeping

(5) What is your favorite 'fast food' restaurant?
>> mcD

(6) Where is your favorite local place to hang out at?
>> citos ama kampusku

(7) Are you a farmer?
>> nope. but ever wanted to be one.

(8) If you could marry anyone who would it be?
>> jude law

(9) How much do you think about the oppisite sex?
>> as much as i can *laughs*

(10) What is your best subject in school?
>> anthropology 101

(11) What kind of grades do you make?
>> come again?? good ones..?

(12) If you could go anywhere where would you go?
>> PARIS *grrr*. naaa.... Frankfurt again.

(13) How many people do you live with?
>> 5

(14) What is your favorite sport?
>> soccer, volleyball, figure skating

(15) How many kids do you want?
>> five!

(16) What would you name them?
>> hmm.... would have to think more on that

(17) What color lipgloss/lipstick do you usually wear?
>> transparent

(18) Coke or Pepsi?
>> CoKe

(19) Have you ever climbed a tree?
>> yes

(20) Have you ever been in a wreck?
>> nope. not wanting to

(21) When do you usually go to bed?
>> 3 am

(22) Do you have more dreams or nightmares?
>> dreams

(23) Do you practice any type of religion?
>> yes

(24) How many friends do you have?
>> not counting

(25) What's your greatest accomplishment?
>> enrolling in Archaeology

(26) What do you plan to be when you're older?
>> a mom - an archaeologist - a traveljournalist

(27) What do you normally wear to bed?
>> daster

(28) What's your favorite thing to do?
>> singing

(29) What color hair do you have?
>> black

(30) Do you sing well?
>> yes

(31) Have you ever been in love?
>> i am

(32) Would you eat a cockroach for $500?
>> nope!

(33) Are you afraid of the dark?
>> nope

(34) If you had to sum your life up with a song what would it be?
>> huuuuuh.... lets see.... Quando Quando Quando

(35) Where's the last place you went out to eat at?
>> Sabang

(36) What color would you say you wear the most of?
>> black

(37) Do you get along with your parents?
>> kind of

(38) Would you consider yourself 'popular'?
>> yeah... *bhahahaha*

(39) Do you live in the country, burbs, or city?
>> burbs

(40) What was your most painful experience?
>> doh! Gunung Padang.... that is PAINFULL, HONEY!!!

(41) What was your most happy experience?
>> Jerman!

(42) Have you ever been stalked?
>> yep

(43) What means the most to you out of everything in the world?
>> my life

(44) Do you go hunting (deer,duck,etc)?
>> nope

(45) What is the funniest joke you ever heard?
>> tanya ble'e

(46) What is your favorite pair of shoes?
>> my trekking shoes

(47) How many people are on your buddylist?
>> a lot

(48) Do you get dates easily?
>> nope

(49) Would you rather give an honest opinion or hold out just to be nice?
>> honest opinion

(50) What do you see yourself doing when you are 50 years old?
>> feeding my cats, while cooking for my husband, and waiting for my kids and grandkids to come over

(51) How many songs do you know all the words to?
>> banyak juga

(52) Who is your favorite superhero?
>> Mary Wollstonecraft

(53) What is your biggest pet peeve?
>> annoying pretty people with empty heads and nothing to think of other than their make ups or hair

(54) Would you consider yourself racist?
>> sometimes...

(55) Do you read books often?
>> yes

(56) If you could change anything about you what would it be?
>> my figure

(57) What is your favorite type of gum?
>> bubble *laughs*

(58) Do you snore?
>> yes, especially di tempat yang bernama Pangguyangan

(59) Are you afraid of thunderstorms?
>> no. i love it

(60) Do you care what you look like?
>> skrg, iya

(61) As a kid, what was your favorite cartoon?
>> sailor moonn!!

(62) Whacha wearing?
>> daster ijo

(63) When's the last time you kissed anyone?
>> about a month ago

(64) When you listen to the radio, what kind of station is it normally on?
>> jazz

(65) What's your best physical feature?
>> eyes

(66) What's the best thing about your personality?
>> funny

(67) What's the worst thing about your personality?
>> moody

(68) What physical feature attracts you most to the opposite sex?
>> fingers

(69) What personality trait attracts you most to the opposite sex?
>> brains and sense of humor

(70) Are you picky about who you date?
>> yes

(71) Have you ever flown in a airplane?
>> yes

(72) What size shoe do you wear?
>> 37 - 38

(72) Do you wear makeup?
>> no

(73) Have you ever went bungee jumping?
>> wanting to!!!!

(74) Ever been to Paris?
>> hiiikksss...

(75) Do you believe in Vampires?
>> yes

(76) If you could become a Vampire, would you?
>> yeah!

(77) Do you have any phobias?
>> herpetophobia

(78) Who is your least favorite family member?
>> some1

(79) Have you ever stolen anything?
>> no

(80) Do you eat seafood?
>> no

(81) When you were a kid, what was your favorite movie?
>> grrr.... dont remember

(82) Ever drove while drunk?
>> no

(83) Do you drink a lot or at all?
>> at all

(84) Have you ever lit yourself on fire?
>> no

(85) How many people do you trust with your life?
>> 4

(86) Are you considered intelligent?
>> yes

(87) What label would you fall under?
>> huh?? Manolo Blahnik??

(88) Do you talk on the phone a lot?
>> yes

(89) How often do you take a shower?
>> mwehehe... depends. di lapangan sih, gw mikir2 dulu kalo mo mandi

(90) Do you have acne?
>> yes

(91) What's your favorite candy bar?
>> none

(92) Ever got a detention in school?
>> yes

(93) Ever been suspended from school? If so, what for?
>> no

(94) Which is better: Punk or Prep?
>> punk

(95) What is your worst habit?
>> moody

(96) Do you like jaw breakers?
>> no

(97) What is your bestfriend's name?
>> githa

(98) Would you call yourself independent or dependent?
>> in-dependent

(99) Do you like gossip?
>> who doesnt???

(100) What do you buy a lot of?
>> books

(101) Do you have any medical problems?
>> yes

(102) Are you listening to anything right now?
>> the waltz - silje nergaard

(103) What's the last movie you've watched?
>> kuntilanak

(104) Who is your favorite friend?
>> githa

(105) Who do you get along with the best?
>> githa

(106) Have you ever been in a fist fight?
>> almost

(107) Who would you like to see run for president?
>> dont care

(108) Did you ever fall asleep in class?
>> yes

(109) Who would you say you look up to?
>> mbak Inge, mbak Karin

(110) A one peice swimsuit or two peice swimsuit?
>> 1 piece

(111) Have you ever been in a talent show?
>> yes

(112) Ever been camping?
>> all the time

(113) Shorts or jeans?
>> both

(114) Double dates or just the two of you?
>> the two of us

(115) Do you go to camp?
>> yes

(116) When's the last time your parents spanked you?
>> never

(117) Can you rhyme well?
>> quite well

(118) Have you ever belonged to a gang?
>> yes

(119) Do you know people who belong to a gang?
>> yes

(120) Do you smoke ciggarettes?
>> yes

(121) Indoors out outdoors?
>> outdoors

(122) Have you ever gotten beaten up?
>> no

(123) Do you know how to cook?
>> yes

(124) Do you know how to do laundry?
>> yes

(125) When you get a pizza, how many slices do you eat?
>> 3

(126) How much do you weigh?
>> SHUT UP!

(127) Do you consider yourself too fat/skinny?
>> too fat

(128) Do you watch the superbowl?
>> no

(129) What's your least favorite color?
>> pink

(130) Have you ever faked being sick?
>> yes

(131) Ever done something illegal?
>> yes

(132) What's the longest you've stayed up?
>> KKL 06

(133) Are you afraid of dying?
>> no

(134) What's your biggest regret?
>> nothin

(135) Ever picked up a hitch hiker?
>> no

(136) Is your name on any bathroom walls?
>> no - what for???

(137) Do you have a boyfriend or girlfriend?
>> i dont know

(138) Do you have any stuffed animals?
>> yes!

(139) Fave 'scary' movie?
>> banyak

(140) Fave 'action' movie?
>> james bond

(141) Fave 'romantic' movie?
>> 50 first dates, a lot like love, wicker park, alfie, closer

(142) Do you have an accent?
>> american

(143) What is the last thing you ate?
>> mie goreng

(144) Do you like surprises?
>> yes - good ones

(145) What kind of job would you like to have?
>> curator or working in an auction

(146) Do you like to dance?
>> yes

(147) Ever took ballet?
>> selbst lernen

(148) Bold or pastel colors?
>> pastel

(149) What is your normal Friday night like?
>> spending it with friends in campus

(150) What brand do you wear most?
>> eiger

(151) What do you normally watch on TV?
>> oprah

(152) Do you have any 'special' talents?
>> yes

(153) What is your biggest fear?
>> worms

(154) What is the craziest thing you've ever done?
>> i'll get back to you on that!

(155) Can you play a musical instrument?
>> yes. tin whistle

(156) What star sign are you?
>> sagitarrius

(157) Do you prefer public schools or private?
>> private

(158) Do you care what people think?
>> sometimes

(159) Have you ever shot a gun?
>> no

(160) What are your favorite board games?
>> scrabble

(161) What is/was your favorite subject in school?
>> anthropology 101

(162) Regular ice or crushed ice?
>> regular

(163) Blue ink or black ink?
>> black

(164) Are your clothes mostly loose or tight fit?
>> tight

(165) Have any peircings?
>> yes

(166) Gold or silver?
>> silver

(167) What kind of shampoo/conditioner do you use?
>> herbal essences

(168) Do you blow dry your hair?
>> no

(169) Would you say you're a cuss-a-holic?
>> yes

(170) What's the last book you've read?
>> sejarah sunda

(171) Britney Spears or Christina Aguilera?
>> brits

(172) Spiderman or Superman?
>> none

(173) Have you ever broken a bone?
>> yes

(174) Shower or Bath?
>> shower

(175) Do you have any cavities?
>> no

(176) Have you ever wore braces?
>> no

(177) What do you live in?
>> a house

(178) Would you choose true love or 100 million dollars?
>> 100 mil, becuz true love is bullshit

(179) Do you have Cable?
>> yes

(180) Do you play any computer games?
>> no

(181) How long did it take you to finish this?
>> half an hour

udjian

2006-11-08T22:29:00.000+07:00

nyehehehe...
gw mengawali hari dengan UJIAN TENGAH SEMESTER yang sudah lamaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa sekali telatnya. Hmmm.... jurusan laen kayanya udah kelar ujian, kok jurusan gw belom yaw?! Kemaren ada kejadian, mahasiswa yang harusnya ujian matakuliah Pemukiman, dan salah seorangnya sdh blajar mati2an di lab dg melahap semwa kertas2 diktat dia, ehhh... malah malahnya g jadi ujian, karena apaaa?? Dosennya nyangsang di Jogja! Grrr banget gak seeh?!

untungnya matakuliah Seni Pertunjukan gw nggak begitu kok... sesuai dengan apa yang gw harapkan dan gw bayangkan.... soal2nya siy mudah... cuma jawabannya banyak yang mendjebak. Ya sudahlah, gak segitunya nyesel siy -- walau gw mbaca catetannya sembari minum kupi pagi2... krn malemnya gw keasikan tidur... *laughs*

yah, kita liat aja nilaynya brapah.... sementara papernya matakuliah ini jadi brasa seabreg2 getoohh... :(

apresiasi seni masa lampau

2006-11-04T00:04:00.000+07:00

rabu yang lalu, dalam kuliah Seni Pertunjukan Indonesia Kuna, yang didedengkoti oleh mas Agus Aris Munandar, gw seperti tersadarkan akan sesuatu (lagi). ketika itu, kami sedang membahas ttg pewayangan kontemporer dan perkembangannya selama masa Indonesia Kuna. Mas Agus melontarkan pertanyaan sederhana, yang seharusnya bisa langsung dijawab oleh kami2 - para mahasiswanya.

"Menurut Anda, mengapa generasi muda sekarang kurang bisa megnapresiasi seni kuna, seerti wayang?"

sontak gw berpikir. bukan karena takut mas Agus ntar nyuruh gw njawab, tapi karena pertanyaan itu adalah pertanyaan yang sama dengan apa yang selama ini gw tak pernah selesai pikirkan. hmm! *ngerti g siy?* hehe... dan bener aja... mas Agus menunjuk gw yang duduk di sebelah Dinda untuk menjawab.

"Kalau menurut saya, sih... mungkin pengadaan inovasi dalam pertunjukan2 yang disebutkan oleh teman2 yang lain td agak terlalu muluk dan memakan biaya untuk hasil yang kita tidak tahu akan seperti apa. Sebenernya, mas, kalau saya lihat - besar kecilnya apresiasi generasi muda sekarang ini thd kesenian kuna spt wayang adalah tersangkut pada masalah selera saja. Misalnya, saya. Saya gemar membaca buku2 yang menceritakan ttg tokoh pewayangan dan hal2 yang berkaitan dengan seni kuna, karena saya merasa perlu untuk mengetahui lebih dalam ttg hal2 tersebut. Sementara, yang lain mungkin lebih merasa kalau hasil2 budaya akibat penetrasi budaya barat (yang lagi2 disalahkan) lebih menarik dan terlihat modern, serta memenuhi kebutuhan sosialisasi mereka."

Fyyyyyuh.... iya gak sih?? coba gw tanya:
1. brapa orang dari kita yang pernah dateng k museum wayang dan tau kalo ada pertunjukan wayang gratis di bagian belakang museum setiap hari sabtu dan minggu?
2. brapa orang dari kita yang tau kalo panji itu digambarkan dalam berbagai warna yang menunjukkan emosinya dia?

dan pertanyaan2 lain muncul - yang mana belom tentu gw sebagai mahasiswi arkeo dan juga temen2 gw bisa ngejawabnya... kenapa? kalo mo gampang, salahin sama budaya barat yang begitu gencaaaaarrrr menyerang keseharian kita.

mas agus berpendapat bahwa wayang adh sebuah karya seni yang menggambarkan simbol2 dan memang harus menghayati - tidak hanya melihat, tapi memandang - agar mengerti maksud dari simbol2 yang digambarkan itu. pendapat ini mendasari pendapat gw mengenai kenapa wayang nggak populer sekarang.

imagine this: zaman kita ini, semuanya serba instan dan cepat saji, dianggap praktis, tidak buang2 waktu, efektif, dan efisien. nah, tidak demikian halnya jika kita menonton wayang. sebuah lakon wayang menyimpan banyak pesan moral dan penggambaran2 yang disampaikan melalui simbol yang tdk bisa diartikan secara harfiah saja. mungkin kita nonton wayang hari ini, dan baru akan mengerti maksudnya besok atau malah minggu depan. sesuatu yang tidak instan dan cepat saji, tidak dianggap praktis, buang2 waktu, tidak efektif, dan tidak efisien. gmana?

mas agus kemudian menutup kuliah dengan bekal tugas untuk tanggal 22 November. membuat essay ttg salah satu tokoh cerita kuna di Indonesia, dan pilihan gw jatuh pada mBak Drupadi.

sadaaaaaaar!!!

2006-11-02T13:57:00.000+07:00

fiuuhhh!
akhirnya, setelah *tamparan* hebat di hati gw...
akhirnya, gw menyadari kalo.....
GW HARUS MULAI NGERJAIN SKRIPSI!!!
heran deh, kok males banget yah, mulainya! emang sih; ini sindrom standar yang mencuat ketika baru menyelesaikan Rangkuman Kajian Arkeologi; which is pra-skripsinya arkeyo. Cuma, tampaknya gw harus mengadakan pencegahan sebelum sindrom kemalasan ini menjadi penyakit yang mendarah daging - apalagi mEnuLar!!! wahhh, bahaja!!

mangkanya, siang ini - setelah capek menangisi tamparan tersebut - gw membuka file kubur prasejarah, dan mulai mengotak-atik outline yang sdh separo jalan dikerjakan.
At first, it looked easy... but it probably wont be. mayat2 gw yang cantik dan mengagumkan itu sdh menanti di kuburnya dengan tenang.

"kapaan, ya si Dee mulai mengobrak abrik tidur panjang kita biar jadi skripsi yang bisa bikin dia jadi sarjana arkeyo!?" - mayat 1.

"waduh, tampaknya Dee lagi asik ama dunia barunya, tuuh.... sementara tulang2 kita udah brantakan..." - mayat 2.

"udah deh... mending kita tunggu aja...: - mayat 3.

"tapi ampe kapan?? dia kan harus lulus tahun depan?!" - mayat 4.

"iya, niy... casting gw juga udah siap diutak-atik di PusLit." - mayat 5.

"ya sudahlah, mari sama2 berdoa, semoga Dee segera SADAR dan mengingat kita yang terbaring sunyi di bawah karst tua ini." - mayat 1.

-- serem juga ya, data skripsi gw ngobrolin gw!! hehehe... iya, mayat2 ku sayaaang. Aku datang menjemput kalian, menjadikan belulang kalian kata-kata yang membantu merangkai kalimat masa depanku! ;) Love you all, my corpses!

renungan a la gajahmada

2006-10-31T10:29:00.000+07:00

phew, akhirnya kelar juga membaca 3 jilid serial Gajahmada yang ditulis oleh Pak Langit Kresna Hariadi. Hmm, pandangan gw tentang sosok Gajahmada yang gwagah nan pwerkasya mulai meluntur. Benar, dia mengkontribusikan bergalon-galon keringet untuk membangun Wilwatikta shg menjadi seperti apa yang kita kenal sekarang. Cuma, menilik lebih jauh cerita-cerita tentang Pakdhe Gajahmada, gw pikir, dia cuma seseorang yang sama ambisiusnya kaya pemimpin2 kita sekarang. Oops, gw gak akan dipenjara kaaan, gara2 nulis begini? hehe....

Pakdhe Gajahmada "agak" tertolong dengan track recordnya yang jauh lebih baik daripada Ra Kuti, Ra Tanca, or whoever yang pengen kudeta para raja yang ndudukin singgasana Majapahit. Tapi, yaa,, itu... ambisi tak tertahankan untuk menyatukan Nusantara yang "agak" berlebihan, ampe2 menyatakan hamukti palapa, suatu lakon prihatin alias sumpah, komplet dengan menghindari hal-hal yang dipikirnya bakal menghalangi jalan untuk memenuhi si sumpah yang "terlanjur" diucapkan pada saat Tribhuanatunggadewi Jayawisnuwarddhani mengangkat dia jadi Mapatih.

Hal-hal tersebut, salah satunya adalah memilih untuk tidak menikah, karena "menurut" Pakdhe, perempuan itu adalah salah satu batu sandungannya. Weitsy!!! Pakdhe!! Pada kenyataannya dalam sejarah memang Pakdhe ndak punya record keturunan. Buktinya, sampai saat ini ga ada yang mengklaim jadi keturunannya dia, kan??!

Di halaman 300-301 buku Gajahmada: Hamukti Palapa, ada pembicaraan antara Mapatih Arya Tadah dan Patih Gajahmada, tentang rencana "masa depan" Gajahmada.

"Aku tidak akan menikah, Paman!" jawab Gajahmada tegas.
"Kenapa?" kata Arya Tadah.
"Perempuan adalah sumber kelemahan bagiku, Paman! Yang jika aku layani, akan menjadi penghambat gerak langkahku ke depan, aku tak ingin terganggu oleh hal sekecil apapun," jawab Gajahmada.

Bener banget kalo abis itu Arya Tadah bengong. Secara -- nyokap, nenek, dan tantenya Gajahmada juga perempuan geto loooh!! Hmm.. rasa2nya banyak LSM perempuan ato aktipis feminis yang nggebukin dia deh kalo ngomongnya di zaman sekarang... gw juga!

"Orang berpuasa tidak makan seharian dan bahkan dilkukan berhari2 adalah karena adanya kesadaran atas rasa lapar. Rasa lapar dan haus itulah yang dilwan dan dikalahkan. Aku telah banyak melihat, merasakan, memerhatikan, dan menyimak pengalaman orang lain. Aku melihat banyak lelaki yang mestinya punya kesempatan untuk menjadi perkasa dan bisa berbuat sesuatu yang luar biasa, nyatanya menjadi lembek karena perempuan..." (2006: 304)

Haaah!!?? Pakdhee!!! Ever heard of compromise!? Kalo self-management!? Kalimat2 selanjutnya baca sendiri ya! Keperempuanan gw terkoyak2 dan gw cuma bisa nyengir miris membacanya. Bener gak siy, Pakdhe berpendapat demikian? Mohon penyertaan sumbernya, lho, Pak Langit. Sedih, lho, membaca orang penting Majapahit ngomong begitu. Nyatanya Raden Wijaya, raja pertama, bininya EMPAAAAT.... itu belom ngitung Dara Petak (kalo emang beneran dikawinin)!

Entah dengan maksud apa, trus tokoh Rahyi Sunelok, yang kemudian jadi istrinya Senopati Gajahenggon, muncul. Mbakyu Rahyi digambarkan terampil, perkasa (baca: bisa ilmu bela diri), pinter masak, tapi juga bisa bermanja-manja ama suaminya. Nah lho! Tapi, di buku itu juga dijelaskan bahwa Pakdhe melakukan selibat atas nama pengabdian pada negaranya... hmm... muluk!! Muluk kalo ngarep ada orang yang maw ngelakuin hal itu hari gini. Hare geneee.. berkorban untuk negaraaa!? Kantong dan dompet dulu yang diisi...!!! Jadi inget cara orang Prancis bilang kalaw dia single, "je suis celibataire." Ha! Kalo selibat artinya ndak kawin, laah boong besar! yang one-night stand gak diitung, apah!? Hehehe...

Banyak hal yang ditulis di buku itu, yang sekaligus membuat gw berpikir jauh, entah untuk mengubah pandangan, ataw untuk menelaah validitas pandangan tersebut dalam hidup gw. Contohnya, waktu Mas Adityawarmman datang ke Majapahit dari Swarnabhumi beserta patihnya dalam rangka sowan. Begitu Prabu Putri menerima kedatangan mereka, korsi yang disediain cuma lima, ternyata buat: Sri Gitarja, Dyah Wiyat, Cakradara, Kudamrta, dan Arya Tadah. Lho? Tamunya?? Duduk lesehan di karpet Timur Tengah!! Betapa berlawanan dengan kebiasaan sekarang, ketika tamu itu adalah raja, dan kudu sesopan-sopannya diladeni. Apakah itu bentuk feodalisme zaman Majapahit?! Ato khayalan penulis semata - untuk menciptakan calon konflik antara Adityawarmman dan Majapahit!?

Tipisnya batas antara realita sejarah dan khayalan penulis di buku ini menurut gw rada sedikit berbahaya. Kalo yang baca orang yang ngerti sejarah Majapahit, sepak terjang Gajahmada, ya nggak papa. Yang gw khawatirkan adh kalo yang baca adalah orang yang baru pertama kali mbaca sejarah Gajahmada dan Majapahit (soale waktu di SD dia sakit, jd ndak masuk pas pembahasan Majapahit,,,, hehe?!), agak riskan... Tapi ya sudahlah.... gw, sebagai orang yang *untungnya* punya literatur pembanding (baca: buku babonnya Sejarah Indonesia Kuna) dan dosen2 yang siap menampung rasa pnasaran gw, cuma bisa menikmati serial Gajahmada ini tanpa berusaha mengait2kan dengan kejadian sesungguhnya di Trowulan, sekitar 713 tahun yang lalu.

keranjingan avatars!

2006-10-30T07:14:00.000+07:00

hmmm...
pagi ini... menunggu asisten rumah tangga (baca: pembokat) gw dateng dari Terminal Kampung Rambutan (red. dia abis mudik), gw browsing the net. Dan waktu membalas shoutnya mbak mitha, melihat avatars lucu yang ada di atasnya shoutbox dia.
hmm....
truuus, gw jadi keranjingan getoh... mirip sama waktu gw keranjingan fanlisting. Tapi, kalo avatars nggak mesti daftar dulu. berniat bikin halaman sendiri bwt avatars koleksi gw... hehe...
hmm....
setelah dipikir2.... istilah avatars yang dipake, mungkin berasal dari bahasa Sanskrit "avatara" yang artinya "jelmaan" or something like it. Soale, Hyang Vishnu, punya SEPULUH avatara, which are: kurmavatara, matsyavatara, buddhavatara, varahavatara, narasimhavatara, varahavatara, parasuramavatara, ramavatara, krishnavatara, dan kalkiavatara. Glek!!! Pelajaran dasar agama Hindu yang pernah bikin gw puyeeeeeeeeeeeng dengan segala bahasa Sanskrit dan India Kuna-nya... sekitaaaar semester 2 (which is 4 tahun lalu!!!!)!!!!
kok masih inget yaw, gw??!
sekarang, baru sadar, kalo pengetahuan kaya gitu, ternyata bisa melekat di otak ampe kapanpun jua... ;)

dapet dari prenster....

2006-10-28T18:22:00.000+07:00

Hasil akhir : gw 96 persen experienced!
hehehe... menyenangkan deeeh.... ternyata hidupku nggak grey grey amaaat.. ;)

[x] Held hands
[x] Lost someone
[x] Never got a chance to tell someone something
important
[x] Cried my eyes out
[x] Danced
total: 5

[x] Rejected someone
[x] Wanted to kill someone
[] Got called a slu*t/wh*ore
[x] Heard a rumour about yourself
[x] Hurt someone
total: 4

[x] Got involved in sports
[ ] Got called a dork
[x] Fell out of love
[x] Went to a funeral
[ ] Know someone who has commited suicide
total: 3

[x] Wrote a love song/poem
[x] Went through a phase
[x] Got ditched
[x] Know someone really stupid and/or annoying
total: 4

[x] Drank
[x] Made a mistake
[x] found drugs somewhere
[x] Thought (Tings: Emphasis is THOUGHT) you
found the one
[x]Cheated on your bf/gf
total: 5

[x] Found out your bf/gf cheated
[x] Felt like the happiest person in the world
[x] Felt like dying
total: 3

[x] Prayed
[x] Have/had a crush
[x] Disliked someone
[x] been somewhere you werent supposed to be
total: 4

[x] Spread a rumor
[x] Smoked a cigarette
[x] Done something illegal
[x] Vandalized
total: 4

Now add it up & multiply by 3 this is how
experienced you are

>> elo brapaaah???

libur nan tenang

2006-10-25T13:33:00.000+07:00

hmm...
libur lebaran gini..
gw malah sakit
tepar di rumah.
akhirnya, gawean gw adh tidur, nelpon, makan,
dan online.
lagi nemu website bagus neh,,, student.com getoh.

belom nemu template baru yang okeh. laaanii udah mengimel gw dan
kami sdh mulai berdiskusi ttg template yang akan dibuatkan olehnya. ;)

daaag!

Selamat Lebaraaan!

2006-10-22T19:53:00.000+07:00

maaf lahir bathin yaa teman2 blogger ku!!
mungkin ada kata2 yang salah dan menyinggung ketika kita berteman,
ntah disengaja atopun nggak.....

selamat lebaraan!!

senandung segalanya

2006-10-16T22:44:00.000+07:00

Cruising when the sun goes down
Across the sea
Searching for
Something inside of me

I will find all the lost pieces
Heart will feel
Deep and real
I was blind but now i see

Yeah...
You're the one [2x]
Yeah...
I can't live without u

Take me to your place
Where our hearts belong together
I will follow you
Cause you're the reason that i breathe

I'll come running to you
Feel me with your love forever
Promise you one thing
I will never let you go

Cause you are my everything -- GlenN

::. kyaaaahahahaha... ini kan lagu yang selalu terputar di dalam bis gw selama perjalanan pulang dari trw! hummm... kamu di bis sebelah siy, sayang...! miss you so much, my everything! ;)

ditta mengingatkan dengan doa

2006-10-14T21:51:00.000+07:00

Aku berdoa untuk seorang laki-laki , yang akan menjadi bagian dari hidupku
Seorang laki-laki yang sungguh mencintai-Mu lebih dari segala sesuatu.
Seorang laki-laki yang akan meletakkanku pada posisi kedua di hatinya setelah Engkau
Seorang yang hidup bukan untuk dirinya sendiri tetapi untuk-Mu.
Seorang laki-laki yang mempunyai hati sungguh mencintai dan haus akan Engkau
dan memiliki keinginan untuk mentauladani sifat-sifat Agung-Mu.
Seorang laki-laki yang mengetahui bagi siapa dan untuk apa ia hidup, sehingga hidupnya tidaklah sia-sia
Seorang laki-laki yang mempunyai hati yang bijak bukan hanya sekedar otak yang cerdas.
Seorang laki-laki yang tidak hanya mencintaiku tetapi juga menghormatiku
Seorang laki-laki yang tidak hanya memujaku tetapi dapat juga menasehati ketika aku berbuat salah
Seorang laki-laki yang mencintaiku bukan karena lahiriahku tetapi karena hatiku.
Seorang laki-laki yang dapat menjadi sahabat terbaikku dalam tiap waktu dan situasi
Seorang laki-laki yang dapat membuatku merasa sebagai seorang wanita ketika di sebelahnya.
Seorang laki-laki yang membutuhkan dukunganku sebagai peneguhnya
Seorang laki-laki yang membutuhkan do'aku untuk kehidupannya
Seorang laki-laki ayang membutuhkan senyumanku untuk mengatasi kesedihannya

Seorang laki-laki yang membutuhkan diriku untuk membuat hidupnya menjadi sempurna.

Dan aku juga meminta.

Buatlah aku menjadi seorang wanita yang dapat membuat seorang laki-laki itu bangga

Berikan aku sebuah hati yang sungguh mencintai-Mu, sehingga aku dapat mencintainya dengan cinta-Mu,

bukan mencintainya dengan sekedar cintaku

Berikanlah sifat-Mu yang kuat sehingga kekuatanku datang dari-Mu bukan dari luar diriku

Berikan aku tangan-Mu sehingga aku selalu berdoa untuknya.

Berikanlah aku penglihatan-Mu sehingga aku dapat melihat banyak hal baik dalam dirinya dan bukan hal buruk saja

Berikanlah aku mulut-Mu yang penuh dengan kata-kata kebijaksanaan-Mu dan pemberi semangat,

sehingga aku dapat mendukungnya setiap hari, dan aku dapat tersenyum padanya setiap pagi.

Dan bilamana akhirnya kami akan bertemu, aku berharap kami berdua dapat mengatakan "Betapa besarnya Engkau karena telah memberikan kepadaku seorang yang dapat membuat hidupku menjadi sempurna".

Aku mengetahui bahwa Engkau menginginkan kami bertemu pada waktu yang tepat dan

Engkau akan membuat segala sesuatunya indah pada waktu yang Kau tentukan.

Amien.

p.s. jadi inget ama kata2 yang tertulis di papan tulisnya bapak Truman Simanjuntak:
segala sesuatu itu indah pada waktunya.

p.p.s. makasih ya, ditta!

attachments of life part 2

2006-10-14T21:00:00.000+07:00

you said that if i keep acting this way
it would make me the same as any other girls you've been with.
i dont want to!
i wanna be significantly amazing in your eyes as i was before.
i wanna be your eternal inspiration as i was always.
i dont wanna be those girls you have been with, because i despise them
even before i know you.

will i ever lose you now?
sorry for becoming such a pathetic attachment of life...

attachments of life

2006-10-14T11:13:00.000+07:00

i have an extremely bad day yesterday!
well - for the last 2 days actually.
i fought with myself over the happiness and a better life for someone i love so much.
the funny thing is that i thought i spoke on behalf of love.
but it wasnt.
it was just ME being very selfish and demanding.
it's so funny, since i know that i nEVeR did that to anybody else - or even to myself.

it's a fuckin' shame that i have to appear tearful in front of him
whilst i know that he hates it when i cry.
there was no definite explanation of the tears coming out that day.
happy, sad, angry, longing, anxious?
i dont know.
he pushed me and pushed me to tell him what happened.
and i said, i dont know
then he told me that i have no idea of how close i've come to nearly lost him in my life.

i dont want to lose him in my life.
how am i supposed to live then?
ugh! that hit me right between the eyes and i remembered:

because of you i never stray too far from the sidewalk

i am so sorry for behaving fuckin' weird for the last two days.
the reason is actually simple : i dont know why i began to fall in love with you deeper than i thought i could,
and when you reminded me that feelings shouldn't be asked, then i came to life.
whatever happen in the future will be a part of our compromises, which we simply have to do so, if we want to maintain what we have now. we'll manage to find a way, hon. i know that.

i am sorry for showing you my swollen eyes -
i wont do it again
i wont do such thing that make me lose you in my life.
and yes, you are attached to mine.

catatan tak ingin usai

2006-10-11T00:16:00.000+07:00

08 okt 06
monyet!
kok gw inget trw, ya? sore2 mjelang pulang k basecamp, menatap siluetnya kamu di bawah terik sembilan butir matahari majapahit! muak, deh! muak dengan keinginan gw yang selalu pengen balik ke trw, bersama kamu dan kemanjaanmu. segelas besar es degan selalu menemani sore hari gw di trw. kadang ditambah bakso super gemuk yang enormous ukurannya. bukan, kok. bukan makanan trw yang bikin gw kangen... tapi kamu... makhluk ganteng yang empat tahun kalingan dari mata gw... hehe... buta juga yaw!? jadi inget waktu gw pulang dari lapangan dan kamu sudah menyeduh segelas kopi dengan aer panas... ah, cinta! kamu baik banget.. heem heemm... trus inget "kewajiban" gw tiap lunch break untuk ngangkatin jemuran kita, ah, lutjunya!

kamu, sebenernya kita tuw gmana siy? kadang gw g pengen ambil pusing, tapi gw jadi pusing kalo gak ketemu elu sehari aja! monyet banget, kan? kamu, sekarang perasaan gw berubah. ternyata elo ga cuma jago nyiramin para pot item yang berjejer itu ya? Elu juga jago ngerawat perasaan gw -- ampe tumbuh jauh lebih subur daripada pot2 berjejer elu. kayanya, setahun yang lalu gw masih menggelepar-gelepar ama cowo laen, deh. elu g pernah keliatan, say! tapi tahun ini lebih berwarna.. bikin gosip? ah, itu sih bisanya mereka aja! apapun yang gw lakukan bersama elu, jauh dari ketenaran kita ber2 *hwahahahaha* biarin aja mereka nggosip. tandanya mereka sayang ama kita!

abis trw, trus btj. pertanyaan2 mengalir dari setiap manusia yang liat kita. gw siy cuma nyengir bego penuh arti sementara kakak2 kita megap-megap ktawa. btj, 2 tahun yang lalu -- yang nggak pengen gw inget! also inseparable. sayang, waktu itu hati gw nyangkut di trompet seseorang. hehe...

dasar blandongan setaaaaaaaaaaan! which was merupakan situs yang bikin gw pengen pulang....
tapi ada lifesaver --- kamu!

haha... bikin catatan kecil ini beberapa hari yang lalu, waktu kangen banget ama tokoh "kamu". kenapa kata2 "kamu" gw bikin warna warni?! karena emang dia bikin hari2 gw tambah warna warni...! ;) tai, ah! gw jadi dangdut getoh! ditta pasti ngakak2 deh baca ini... gw abis curhat online gt tadi ama dia... ahahaha... dit, gw ndak tau yaaaw....

pesan terbuka: kepada ibu diandra tolong mampir k meja ijo yang rame nan panas itu, ya! hahaha.... nggak deeeng! ada crita apalagi, bu dian??!

rencana kyuuu..... setuju?

2006-10-10T23:58:00.000+07:00

pengen ngganti template neeeyh.... bosen ama Paris, karena yang di Paris dan yang bikin gw ingin meninggalkan Indonesia dan menjajah Paris sudah tidak menarik hati. Kurang tantangannya ajah getoooh... haha. gmana? ok aja kali yee, kalo gw ganti template....

sekarang, pencarian template pengganti sdg dilaksanakan... jadi mungkin dalam waktu 3 minggu k depaaaan.... blog ini bakal ganti bajyuuu.. hahaha.. secara gw juga mesti ngajarin dinda CSS gitu. Karena dia pen ganti templet pula!

aku dan ke-cepat bosanan-ku!
maaf yaaa.... ahahaha...

Dapet PeEr!!!!

2006-10-09T23:00:00.000+07:00

terima kasih ibu Diandra atas peEr-nyaaa! hehehe... kadang2 gw wondering.. apakah dikau yang memandu sebuah acara kuizz di antV!? *gyaaaahahahahhaha* nggak diiing... bcanda! ;) yap, bu diandra -- saya masih di meja HEJO.... Hidup arkeYooo!!!

Seven friends I want to pass this on:
1. mae - egypt
2. dindaaaaa buntell! ;)
3. dila
4. tisyasyasyasyasya
5. yunita
6. astrid
7. nida

Seven things that scares me:
*pada dasarnya gw bukan orang yang penakut... ;) jadi kayanya kalo enggak komplet maap yaaw...*
1. kalo gw nggak mampu memenuhi jadwal penyelesaian skripsi
2. ULAR, cacing, dan segala benda yang tidak bertulang belakang
3. dulu sih, gw takut banget ama yang namanya kuliah pra-skripsi
4. yang Maha Besar
5.
6.
7.

Seven random songs at the moment:
1. Kelly Clarkson - Becuz of You
2. Silje Nergaard - The Waltz
3. Tompi - Selalu Denganmu
4. Beach Boys - Wouldnt It Be Nice
5. Float - Pulang
6. Peter Cincotti - Raise The Roof
7. Michael Buble - Save The Last Dance For Me

Seven things that I like the most:
1. My study
2. My life
3. Cigarettes
4. Kafeins
5. Jazz
6. Sungai
7. saYangKyuu yang imoet kaya kutchiiiing!

Seven important things in my bedroom:
1. remote AC
2. cd player
3. lemari buku
4. guling
5. asbak
6. lighter
7. minummmm

Seven random facts about me:
1. galak
2. gembuul
3. suka nyanyi
4. gila buku
5. penggosyiiip
6. hobi ngrokok
7. nggak pernah pake rok

Seven things I said the most:
1. capek dehh...
2. apa seeeh?
3. tapi emmm.....
4. korek, dong!?
5. boong banget loe?
6. oh yaaa?????? *dengan bahasa mata yang sdh pasti dia mengerti*
7. mana kotak rokok gw?!

Seven things I plan to do before I die:
1. bunjeeee jumping ampe bego!
2. snorkelling
3. menemukan kebahagiaan otonom nan abadi
4. sudah puas menjadi arkeolog jajaran internasional
5. punya duit banyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaak banget
6. kembali k Jermanku
7. bunjeee jumping lagheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

ahhhhhhhhhhh, cape ddeeeeyh.... hehehehe....
silakan, lanjutkan peErnya....

translating the cult

2006-10-08T10:38:00.000+07:00

ah!
menyenangkan!
aku dapat job lagi... ya, sayang! dapur kita akan selalu ngebul, kok! *haha*
kali ini terjemahan ke bahasa inggris bwt seorang yang sdh membantu gw melewati masa2 sulit. tadinya gw nggak pen dibayar gt - tapi dia maksa. Ya udah... apa boleh buaaat!? Siapa juga nolak dibayaaar!? hehehe....

Sebenernya gw berterimakasih siy ama niy orang, karena memberikan pekerjaan yang sangat menarik bwt gw... dan terlebih lagi topik yang gw terjemahin adh topik yang sdh lama gw geluti - mother goddess cult. ah, how lovely! 21 halaman akan gw jajal minggu ini.. Insyallah hari rabu udah kelar - dan ternyata bahasa Indonesia yang dia pake nggak rumit2 amat... istilah arkeologis yang gw pikir bakal bikin gw jungkir balik, tnyt berupa istilah arkeologis yang sdh familiar bwt gw... *winks* menyenangkan... tadi malem ampe nggak tidur - langsung sahur - ngerjain 5 halaman getoh... seneng deh...

no, i am not going to talk about the cult here... hmm! just want to write of how much i love translating, sementara tumpukan bacaan skripsi di ujung meja gw udah minta dilirik dan disentuh gitu.... hmmm, maaf yaa.... inikan bulan Puasa.... kita nggak boleh lirik2 dan sentuh2! AHAHAHAA....!!!!!!!!!
aku gilaaa....!

intellectual romance - a fun relationship

2006-10-08T09:41:00.000+07:00

what do you think about a fun relationship?
what do I think?
hmm... it's nothing difficult on achieving it.

for me, a fun relationship is something that's:
- full of laughter
- full of adventures
- full of togetherness
- full of road trips, traveling, backpacking
- full of exotic foods
- full of new exciting moments
- full of unexpected things
- full of intellectual romance
- full of mutual conversation
- full of political debates
- full of self-achievement arguments
- full of cuddly huggly times

i thought i have had it with this guy - but it turned out that he can be bored, too. I can be bored, too. When we decided that we needed to add more adventure into our lives, we spontaneously taken a road trip together. When I told him that my life was plainly grey, he put some colors into it - and all the sweetness. I was happy last week, to come and think of this kind of relationship i have been dreaming of. so intellectual and not full of bullshit promises and words. The importance of knowing that we have each other really relieves me and it sets me free.

Ah well... hopefully that all the aspects that I wrote here would stays that way - or even improving to be something better. All i know is that i am in love with an intellectual romantic person...

hilangnya bahagia

2006-09-28T11:56:00.000+07:00

gw heran.
kagum.
juga bingung.
ternyata ada orang dekat gw yang tidak merasa bahagia.
kenapa?
dia sendiri juga nggak tau!
panjang lebar gw menjelaskan arti kebahagiaan bwt gw, saat dia tanya.

gw sedih.
orang dekat ini istimewa artinya.
tapi dia tidak bahagia [katanya dia].
kenapa, ya?
hadirnya gw apakah tidak membuat bahagia?
padahal... hidup sebagai arkeolog sangat berwarna, dan gw rasa
apa yang dia jalanin nggak begitu berbeda dari yang gw jalanin selama ini.

gw bilang: bahagialah elo saat elo bangun tidur dan masih bisa lihat dunia.
bahagialah elo saat elo lihat jari2 tangan dan kaki elo berjumlah 20.
ibuku mengajarkan untuk selalu bersyukur.

sayang,
kuajarkan kamu untuk mensyukuri setiap helai rambut yang ada di kepalamu.
kamu tidak bahagia?
aku di sini, lho! untuk mencari bahagia itu buat kamu. *nyet!*
ayo, kita cari bahagia bwt kamu!
abisnya, aku bingung: kamu kok tidak bahagia, sementara aku menganggap seluruh isi dunia dan makna yang ada di baliknya bisa membuat aku bahagia seutuhnya.

sayang,
ketika kau tanya pernahkah aku bahagia? ya. pastinya.
aku bahagia, melihat keseharianmu dengan segala keunikannya.
apa jatuh cinta bikin aku bahagia? ya. - most of the times.
seperti apa rasanya? - seperti melayang di antara kapas2 terbang sambil senyum2 sendiri.

sayang,
petakanlah kebahagiaan yang kau inginkan.
tunjukkan aku peta itu, dan kutemani kau menjalani pencariannya! ;)

unbraid my hair

2006-09-25T09:05:00.000+07:00

lagi ngapain gw pagi ini??
yap. betul! melepaskan braiding di kepala gw satu-satu, SENDIRIAN! ternyata, ngelepasinnya sama susah ama bikinnya!! moga2 gw nggak butuh 3 jam untuk ngelepasinnya, yaw... pan aye mesti kudu k kampus...! Tapi kayanya emang nggak sanggup semua gw buka sendiri sebelum jam 10... nyeet.. banyak begt ya ternyata rambut gw! hahaha....

Knapa dibuka, Dee? - tanya Dian, yang jam 6 udah jaga warnet.
Gatel! kasian rambut gw... not to mention calon2 ketombe yang muncul kalo digaruk... yikes!! padahal gw keramas tiap hari loooh.. wangi..

Begitulah -- masa2 rambut gw ok banget, nyaingin Alicia Keys...

Huuh... mungkin gw akan k kampus aja, dan mencari bala bantuan untuk melepaskan kepangan kecil ini... Semoga kampus lagi rame... Jangan sampe gw ngisi entry bahwa gw botakin rambut gara2 gw BeTe mesti ngebukain ini satu2.. ahahhahaa....

pertarungan kecantikan

2006-09-22T09:00:00.000+07:00

CANTIK menurut KBBI adalah 1. elok, molek (tt wajah atau muka); rupawan; 2. indah dalam bentuk dan buatannya. 3. suka bersikap menarik perhatian laki-laki; genit; centil.

hm!
belah mana dari diri gw yang cantik? - tak ada.
akhir2 ini, sepertinya seseorang dibuat bingung akan ketidakcantikan gw dan kecantikan seseorang lainnya. sebenernya, apakah itu berharga? buat gw, kecantikan itu bener2 semu, nggak abadi, terlalu konkret...
emangnya, cinta masih akan terus bersemi kalo yang cantik2 itu udah pada keriput misut - kendor di mana2 - kalo cinta itu cuma berdasar pada cantiknya seseorang?

hm!
kenapa nggak dicoba untuk melihat cantiknya hati seseorang? hati yang nggak akan pernah keriput misut?? mudah2an semua yang sdh gw lakukan itu tulus dari hati gw yang belum keriput, yah.

seriously...!
emang penting ya untuk jadi cantik??
kalo cantik tapi bego!?
kalo cantik tapi imbisil? - buat apa, juga?!

tubuh yang ahoy juga perlu, ya?
semua itu sebenernya LUPUT dari perhatian gw, sampe pada masanya di mana gw ditowel2 untuk bangun dan melihat kenyataan bahwa: YA, dee... itu SEMUA diituuuungggg!!!

Telat bangeeeet..
gw adh seorang perempuan arkeo yang nggak begitu ok dalam merawat tubuh. Perawatan tubuh gw serahkan pada alam. Kulit yang nggak mulus lagi, krn sdh dibasuh ama peluh mentari. Muka yang nggak cantik juga sih... pemberian Tuhan, tapi syukurlah mata, hidung, mulut, jidat, dagu, pipi, kuping, rambut, alis, dan bulu mata semua lengkap. Makasih Tuhan. Kaki gw?! Ah! Rusak total! 2 lutut yang rada retak, ankle kanan yang juga rusak, telapak kaki yang TIDAK HALUS, serta berbagai macam suvenir dari hiking bertahun2. Tangan gw!? kasar....! hasil pekerjaan lapangan bertahun2... and i love it! alhamd, jari2 kaki dan tangan gw lengkap semua... makasih Tuhan!!

Dee..
masih perlukah elo nanya ama orang2 kalo elo cantik ato enggak?
udah sadar belom, kalo Tuhan udah ngasih semua yang ada di diri elo secara lengkap?
karunia Tuhan udah cukup, kan? Sekarang gmana elo mempercantik hati elo aja deh.
Pasti elo jadi makin cantik. Kalo bukan di mata dia, setidaknya di mata Tuhan.

Kamu! Kamu, sayaaaang!!!!
yang ingin aku lebih cantik sesuai dengan cantiknya perempuan itu...!
Di balik dadaku masih ada hati yang merasa.
Coba diteliti lebih lanjut bagian itu...
Kamu sadar gak sih, semua *tuntutan* itu bikin aku pusing, bikin aku mempertanyakan kemampuanku sebagai manusia.
Aku pikir, bukan tubuhku yang menginspirasikan kamu - dulunya!
Semoga syarat itu sudah tidak berlaku.
Atau.... akankah cantikku akan redup karena cantiknya perempuan lain lagi?
Akankah aku terkalahkan oleh perempuan cantik lainnya!?

Jika demikian, aku berhenti bertarung!

Doubutsu-Uranai

2006-09-21T07:48:00.000+07:00

Dapet dari blognya Dian niy...
setelah gw cek, ternyata gw adalah:

Green Raccoon, who is affectionate, and have womanly attraction wafting around. You give an impression of a dreaming little girl, but unlike your outside impression, you are very cautious and do not easily let other people in your heart.Characteristics of this type of people tend to be rather weak and simple. You want to depend on others heavily. Therefore, you are good at reading people's character, and have clear preferences of people. Although you tend to be a quiet person, you have intelligence, and once you are in action, you become very practical. Your dreams are big, and you try to make it come true through your experiences. Your dream will be decided according to the circumstances you are born.Raccoon people have kind hearts and are full of volunteer spirits. You take extreme good care of those people below your rank or those who are weak. You are always enduring and show perseverance. You are especially not afraid to face men.You don't like to be alone, and therefore feel safe where there are lots of people. By working and living in a group will improve you, and makes it possible to understanding yourself further, and be able to build up a better life. Once married, you will do anything to help your husband, and can become a good housewife. But you may become little too demanding, so be careful.

braided heart

2006-09-21T07:24:00.000+07:00

akhirnya!
1. gw ngisi blog lagi!
2. sdh 2 mg berlalu sjak gw membraid rambut gw - dan masih PW
3. gw punya adek2 baru di arkeyo - tapi pada brondong dan gak ada yang bisa memenuhi selera dan napsu perempuan gw... ahahaha....!!!!

kapan ya, gw muat foto gw dengan rambut okeh ini!? rencana gw siy malah nggak pengen gw lepas2 sampe lebaran, tapi kok ya... nggak enak juga ya.... bukan gara2 gw ngabisin sekitar 275rb untuk bikin rambut ky gini. Tapi krn gw ternyata suka dengan style yang gw pake, dan keramas jadi lebih mengasyikkan!

maaf ya... udah lama banggets gw nggak update di blog ini.. bukannya nggak sayang lagi: tapi gw sibyuuuk.... sampe tgl 30, gw ms pny deadline yang harus dipenuhi, dan 3 bahan terjemahan yang juga mennumpuk somewhere di kamar gw belum tersentuh... pdhl kmrn orgnya sms gw... nagih, nyooong! :P

ya sudtralah, gw brangkat gawe dulu yeew...

w.i.s.u.d.a

2006-09-01T08:49:00.000+07:00

yah!
wisuda.
besok, semua temen2 gw yang angkatan 2000 dan 2001 diwisuda.

githa
vera
aper
ajeng
abi
ami
mbah
alham
nisa
dian
indri
anton

udah ya? ampe lupa gw sapa aja yang diwisuda, saking banyaknya.
malem ini gw nginep di depok, guna menemani vera dan githa ke salon besok subuh. Ugh! Bakal nganggur abis niy gw di salon: mereka kan nyanggul: dan itu bisa LAMA BANGET. pake bermake-up *ih* pula! hahaha.. kapan lagi liat anak arkeo dimake-up!! ghahaha..

dee kapan wisudanya?
*ih* MASIH LAMA! haha... bab 2 aja belom terlontar dari otak, udah pen wisuda ajah! Arkeo itu gampang masuknya, susah begt keluarnya! makanya... jgn meremehkan dunia perarkeologian. Kuliahnya aja bisa 6 tahun ++.

selamat ya, teman-temanku yang diwisuda! walaupun kampus akan sangat sepi sekali tanpa kalian setiap hari, kita nggak bisa nongkrong2 kaya dulu, tapi yaah.. memang semua ada gilirannya, lah! ;) Sekarang giliran kalian, mungkin ntar giliran gw. sementara ityu....

DEE SKRIPSINYA DIMULAI DOOOOOOONG!!!!!!!

waltzing my heart out

2006-08-30T10:43:00.000+07:00

Strike up the band let it play
love songs to haunt me and i will stay
but when it comes to the waltz
both words and music
will ring false

for you waltzed in and spun my world
around in dizzy dance i swirl
but suddenly you waltzed away from me

those violins they must go
so no careless hand with a bow
may play on the strings of my heart
and make me remember how lover part

for you waltzed in and spun my world
around in dizzy dance i swirl
but suddenly you waltzed away from me

Strike up the band let it play
whatever it choses and i will say
play me a waltz if you will
i sit here and listen
waiting until
my love returns to take my world
and spin it round in dizzy swirl

where girl loves boy and boy loves girl
and feet dont touch the ground

\\ Silje Nergaard - The Waltz //

hmmmh, lagu ini sangat Eropa dan sehr romantisch. Jadi inget sebulan yang lalu, saat gw ada di belahan dunia lain, dan ketemu makhluk menakjubkan itu. Kalo denger lagu ini yang kbayang adalah gw dan dia sedang duduk2 berdua di bangku di tepi Sungai Main dan terdiam - hilang dalam kata-kata. Ach, ganz Liebe! apalagi kalo saat itu autumn.... semua daon warnanya coklat dan kuning serta hijau.. akh.. sempurna!

atau : Paris, Arc de Triomphe - jalan kaki sama makhluk menakjubkan itu - autumn, dingin - pake overcoat item - gandengan tangan - aaaaaw.... mauuuuuw...
idih, kok gw jadi mupeng gini yaaaw?! hahahaha...

Ke mana aja siih?

2006-08-30T08:26:00.000+07:00

gw?
sibuukk... sibuk mikirin temen gw yang kecelakaan dan masih di semi-ICU sampe sekarang, tapi dia udah baikan, siih. Sibuk mikirin skripsi gw yang tak kunjung datang ilhamnya, sibuk mikirin acara besar jurusan gw yang sebentar lagi datang. Sibuk mikirin duit yang kok makin berkurang setiap hari, hahaha...! Eh, bener lho... Umur2 segini, ternyata gw jadi sangat serius dan perhitungan kalo liat duit.

gw?
Sibuk mikirin gmana ini sistem SIAK Online milik UI Depok tercinta yang NGGAK BERFUNGSI juga hingga pagi ini! Kemaren gw udah ngisi FRS sebagai cadangan SIAK ONLINE yang *katanya* bisa mempermudah mahasiswa dalam mendaftar setiap semesternya... Ach, bull-syit! Coba liat aja di Bulletin Boardnya mereka --> banyak caci dan maki para mahasiswa tingkat akhir yang merasa disulitkan dengan sistem baru yang NGGAK ada cadangannya ini.

gw?
lagi kangen sama *ugh* yang di pariiisss.... nyahahaha.... kmaren dengerin CDnya Peter Cincotti, eh.. ada lagu "...i love paris in spring... i love paris in the fall..." gyaaa...! gw langsung menginjak gas *agak* terlalu kenceng [soale lagi nyetir]. Sorenya: seorang alumni gw datang dan bawa sebuah buku yang menggiurkan gw: buku yang isinya proceedings waktu international symposium di Solo Juli taun lalu. Nah! di halaman 295 [kalo g salah] tiba2 gw melihat nama *DIA* di daftar pustaka - bersama dengan penulis2 yang notabene juga arkeolog2 terkenal dunia... awwwwwwwww! indahnyaa...... ugh, makin nggak mungkin aja gw menggapai dia... dan mengingat sekarang dia sudah siap menuju *dunia arkeologi internasional* ugh, lagi!

gw?
sekarang lagi diet. juga m*****t.
tau deh udah berkurang berapa kilo. kenapa gw diet? karena gw kbanyakan makan waktu gw di jerman + duduk selama 16 jam di pesawat sebanyak 2 kali jadi 32 jam, trus di Bus juga duduk mulu, bisa 5 - 6 jam, pagi2 pun gw di jerman NGGAK sempet jogging - karena jadwal brangkatnya jam stg 8 pagi mulu!! Jadilah, itu tas pinggang muncul di abdomen gw, dan juga di derrier gw, serta menyamarkan biceps dan triceps gw! monsteeeeeeeeeeerrrrr!!!! fernch fries bisa sangat berbahaya terhadap tubuh anda!!! oh! Plus lagi, tiap pagi gw minumnya teh susu ato kopi susu ato vanilla creme... yah, lengkaplah sudah!!!! emang gw ditakdirkan harus diet LAGI.

>> ditta mana, ya? kok blm online juga tuw cw...!?

akhirnya...

2006-08-26T21:05:00.000+07:00

nggak tahan juga tangan dan jari2 gw mengetik serta mengutak-atik template baru.. hahaha... Koneeeeeng! Ditta berteriak gitu di YM! tadi waktu dia ngecek skin baru gw... hehe...

my PersonalDNA

2006-08-26T09:58:00.000+07:00

Attentive Inventor

You are an Inventor
Your imagination, self-reliance, openness to new things, and appreciation for utility combine to make you an INVENTOR.

You have the confidence to make your visions into reality, and you are willing to consider many alternatives to get that done.

The full spectrum of possibilities in the world intrigues you—you're not limited by pre-conceived notions of how things should be.

Problem-solving is a specialty of yours, owing to your persistence, curiosity, and understanding of how things work.

Your vision allows you to identify what's missing from a given situation, and your creativity allows you to fill in the gaps.

Your awareness of how things function gives you the ability to come up with new uses for common objects.

It is more interesting for you to pursue excitement than it is to get caught up in a routine.

Although understanding details is not difficult for you, you specialize in seeing the bigger picture and don't get caught up in specifics.

You tend to more proactive than reactive—you don't just wait for things to come to you.

If you want to be different:

Try applying your creativity to more artistic arenas, and letting your imagination take less practical forms.

You are Attentive
Because you like spending time with others, understand their feelings, and often know what is best for them, you are ATTENTIVE.

Some people are merely concerned about others, but you take action, helping people when you have the opportunity.

Although you care about others, you are hesitant to trust them to act in the best way on their own.

You don't let your concerns with people go unnoticed: if someone has hurt your feelings, that person will hear about it.

People energize and excite you—you are able to have fun and be yourself when you're around others.

You also learn a lot about yourself by talking things out with people, even if you don't always share things that are important to you.

You have a strong sense of right and wrong, and you're not hesitant to express yourself.

Understanding the dynamics of a situation is an important skill that you have, and you often intervene to clarify things for others.

If you want to be different:

You care about people, but finding the ones you can truly trust will allow you to get closer to them.

While you have strong opinions about what is right and wrong in the world, you risk coming across as judgmental—be sure to consider different perspectives when voicing your opinion.

Matinya TOEkang Kritik

2006-08-26T09:23:00.000+07:00

24.08.06 kemaren gw nonton pertunjukan monolognya Butet Kertaradjasa di Schouwburg nan indah dihiasi arsitektur neo-klasik yang pernah populer di masa Batavia tempo doeloe. Pertunjukan ini menceritakan tentang hidup seorang tukang kritik yang selalu mengkritik semua-mua yang ada di depan matanya dia.

Adegan dimulai dengan terbangunnya dia di tahun 1998 dan layar pun menampilkan video seluruh kerusuhan yang terjadi tahun itu, Aih, gw paling benci ama tahun itu... Mencekam!!!

Nama si tukang kritik ini adalah Raden Mas Suhikayatno yang lahir sejak adanya dunia. Diceritakan pulla bahwa kisah kelahirannya ada 1501 versi. Di antaranya adalah dia lahir dari bonggol pisang atau lahir dari persetubuhan kabut dan waktu. R.M. Suhikayatno ini juga seperti berada di setiap masa, setiap sejarah, dan meimliki banyak nama. Di India namanya berubah jadi Mahatma Gandhi, di Amrik jadi Martin Luther King, dan di Yunani namanya jadi Socrates [yang dipadankan dengan Suka Protes].

Dalam hand out yang dikasih ama mbak-mbak yang dandan a la India di depan gedung, ada artikel berjudul "Harmonis itu Tidak Baik"

"Ketika dunia jadi harmonis ... maka Tukang Kritik tidak akan dibutuhkan lagi."

Bener juga siiih...

Lakon ini isi sebenernya adalah kritik-kritik pedas yang disamarkan secara halus dalam banyolan-banyolan merdu yang diolah apik oleh Butet. Atau, Butet hanya aktor pemainnya aja, ya!? Tau deh... Dalam berbagai kalimat pada setiap adegan muncil sentilan-sentilan nakal yang mengkritik para petinggi negara kita tercinta ini.

"Jadi presiden Indonesia itu, malah keliatan begonya. Yang DOKTOR aja keliatan begonya..." ujar R.M. Suhikayatno di atas panggung dan diiringi derai tawa penonton - termasuk gw. Dia BENER!!

Tak jarang juga kalimat-kalimat dalam adegan diselingi banyolan jorok dan kata-kata kasar khas Jawa Timur yang bikin gw terpingkal-pingkal ngakak. Sempet heran kok cw yang duduk di sebelah gw nggak ikutan ngakak. Ooh, ternyata dia nggak ngarti.

Suhikayatno juga sempat menyinggung hubungannya dengan Mapatih Gajahmada, staff-nya Hayam Wuruk waktu memerintah negara Majapahit - yang ternyata buahnya emang paiittt!! Menurut Suhikayatno, Gajahmada itu hobinya ngintipin perempuan lagi mandi. Suatu ketika, Suhikayatno diajakin ngintip sampe manjat pohon. Lagi asik-asik ngeliatin cw-cw pad amandi, Gajahmada nggak nyadar nyenggol sarang lebah, dan akhirnya lebah2 itu menyengat mukanya, sama seperti yang bisa kita lihat di buku2 sejarah. Hmm... kekeliruan sejarah!

Gw mau meluruskannya - sebagai calon arkeolog Indonesia. Sebenernya, muka Gajahmada yang terkenal itu BUKAN seperti apa yang kita lihat di buku sejarah. Kejadiannya adalah: pada saat penggalian, para arkeolog menemukan patung kepala itu dan seorang pejabat seenaknya memutuskan itu mukanya Gajahmada. Padahal, sampe sekarang NGGAK ADA bukti yang bisa mendukung interpretasi bahwa itu mukanya Gajahmada. Bahkan mungkin NGGAK ADA yang tau mukanya Gajahmada itu kaya gmana?! Lagipula, pada penggalian-penggalian berikutnya ditemukan sejumlah benda yang berbentuk sama, dan ternyata itu adalah ------ CELENGAN!!!!!!!!

Hmm... analisis gw sih: Kalo Gajahmada itu orang yang dihormati, masa' mukanya diproduksi secara massal dan dipake sebagai celengan! Trus lobang masukin duitnya masa' di kepala ato di mulut? 'Kan tidak sopan! Itu -- menurut gw -- bertentangan dengan adab sopan-santun masyarakat Jawa, terutama terhadap petingginya yang dihormati.

Haaaah... puas ngakak deh nonton lakon itu!
Kadang gw juga termasuk salah satu orang yang menginginkan kehidupan di negeri Utopia -- di mana semuanya serba teratur. Tapi setelah nonton lakon ini, gw seperti tertampar. Kenapa gw pengan semuanya serba teratur? Apakah gw lupa dengan konsep keseimbangan? Yin dan Yang?

Ada yang cantik, ada yang jelek. Ada siang, ada malam. Ada yang beruntung, ada yang sial. Dan kalau keseimbangan itu kacau, malah dunia jadi hambar. Bayangin aja kalo di dunia ini semua orang tiba2 kaya. Siapa yang mau jadi sopirnya Mercedes kita? Siapa yang mau jadi pembantu? Siapa yang mau jadi babysitter?

Ato kalo semua orang jadi arkeolog? Waaah... bisa gw bayangin semua bagian bumi akan bolong-bolong digali ama mereka!!!!

Hidup itu dinamis. Ada naik, ada turun. Makanya tukang kritik masih diperlukan, sehingga orang2 kayak R.M. Suhikayatno nggak perlu khawatir akan eksistensinya. Pasti ada yang nggak bener kok, di dunia ini. Kan gw juga tukang kritikkk!!!

Dynamic equilibrium.

ada yang lain dengan Paris

2006-08-22T07:45:00.000+07:00

kenapa Paris?
sekarang, setiap kali gw dengar kata *Paris* hati gw bergetar. *halah*

ada yang lain dengan Paris... sebenernya apa seh yang gw tunggu?! Visa Schenken udah dtangan, duit - kuras tabungan -, bisa aja gw nekat dan mem*paris*kan diri gw besok! eh, nggak.... HARI INI!

Tapi gw lebih milih untuk diem, nunggu, dan nunggu...

ihikss... Paris....!!!

gw mimpi serem nih: gw dan dia berada dalam satu trip lagi bersama. walaupun tujuannya sama, tapi gw ama dia selalu nggak se-bis, ato seruangan. Padahal selalu cari-carian. Ugh, males deh, ngartiinnya!

ada yang lain dengan Paris.

Cakrawala Utrecht

2006-08-21T02:55:00.000+07:00

Utrecht.

Petang hari.

Gerbong-gerbong berwarna putih pucat berbaris rapi di hadapanku. Sembari kuhisap perlahan batang rokok terakhir, aku melangkah memasukinya.

Utrecht.

Petang hari.

Matahari masih nyalang sinarnya, walau ia mulai tergelincir ke ufuk barat cakrawala Utrecht. Aku duduk sendiri menghadap mentari.

Melamun.

Merangkai bait-bait puisi yang dapat tercipta dari semburat jingga mentari.

c'est un jour, comme une autre...

Keretaku meluncur - Leiden.

Kau - mentariku - muncul tiba-tiba, menghalang pandanganku pada cakrawala Utrecht yang menjingga. Kau buyarkan kalimat-kalimat puitis yang tersusun rapi di kepalaku.

"may i sit here?" dan seketika kelu lidahku tanpa kata-kata

hanya anggukan yang mampu menjawab.

Ah, Utrecht...

jinggamu kutinggalkan bersama mentari baruku -

--> untuk seorang yang menatap senja bersamaku di Utrecht <--

UPdateS!!!

2006-08-20T13:54:00.000+07:00

Hey!
Saking bosennya, akhirnya gw menemukan blog gw yang belom beres2 dari kapan taunnn..! hehe... nah.... sekarang semuanya udah gw beresin, udah gw rapiin templatenya, dan udah dipasang haloscannya! ;)

so, go ahead and check : shed personality!!!!!!!!!

Nanti sore... gw mo makan2 ama keluarga besar... hmm... mungkin akan gw pajang lagi foto2 makanan yang akan gw ambil nantinya! ;) Gw juga gak tau jenis restorannya apa... yang pasti weennaaak...

Keluhan Berantai!

2006-08-19T21:57:00.000+07:00

huuuuuuhhh....
Kembali mengeluh aku!
Dari tadi pagi, pantatku ini stuck di korsi depan komputer, ngutak-ngatik powerpoint untuk presentasi! :( Foto2 dari SLR hari ini baru jadi, dan semua udah abis gw scanned. Huuuh... capeeek... masih ada satu makalah lagi yang mesti gw baca dan mesti diringkas untuk masuk ke dalam presentasi! ihiikkks...

Mana gw makan mulu, pula! Hari ini nyoba Makaroni Panggang yang ada di Bogor. Seseorang sudah mulai complain dengan berat badan gw yang sejak pulang dari Jerman malah melonjak! Haha... 45, cinta? tergantung, ya?! Uuuhhh... akhir2 ini kok panas banget ya, di Jakarta, Depok, dan sekitarnya? Temen gw di Jerman kembali menginformasikan bahwa di sana masih suka nggak jelas cuacanya: ya dingin, ya panas, ya anget... aduh!

Knapa pula sih mesti LIBUR KEPANJANGAN? Makin bikin niy bangsa NGGAK PRODUKTIP! So what kalo libur hari Senin!? Tau deeeh... daripada gw ngomel2.. mendingan gw makan, bukan begitu!?

hari capek

2006-08-17T23:02:00.000+07:00

17 Agustus 2006 - Hari kemerdekaan Indonesia yang ke-61. Dari kemaren semua radio yang gw dengerin mengobar2kan semangat dan kebanggan menjadi bangsa Indonesia. Berbagai pertanyaan terus muncul di kepala gw: apakah gw bangga menjadi perempuan Indonesia? dan anehnya, pertanyaan ini langsung bisa gw jawab: Ya, saya bangga menjadi perempuan Indonesia!

17 Agustus 2006 - Hari ulang taun nyokap gw yang ke-50. Wah, udah setengah abad aja umurnya! Tapi uban pun gw rasa belom banyak. Hari ini rumah gw tiba2 rame banget dengan para undangan yang menghadiri perayaan setengah abad nyokap gw. Segala sepupu dan ponakan gw yang masih piyik-piyik itu dateng dan meramaikan rumah yang biasanya sepi dan kosong. Baru dateng, mereka langsung menuju gazebo belakang: liat ikan..

Alin dan Omar yang seneeeng banget ngliat ikan

Setelah itu, *upacara* potong tumpeng pun dilaksanakan. Bokap gw membuka acara dan terus kita potong tumpeng, yang terdiri dari nasi kuning, dadar rawis, sambel kacang, sambel tempe, urap, telur balado, perkedel, dan sambel ati. [Hmm... menggiurkan!]

TUMPENG 17 Agustus 2006

Knapa tumpeng? Apa sih, tumpeng itu? Gw juga belom meneliti ttg tumpeng, asal mula dan sejarah penggunaannya. Tapi pastinya menarik, doong? Kenapa pake nasi kuning, knapa bentuknya harus kerucut, kenapa banyak ubo rampe di sekelilingnya? Nah! Itu dia pertanyaan2 penelitian yang indah tersusun rapi! Ingetin gw ya - untuk mengadakan penelitian pustaka ttg tumpeng!

Setelah nyokap gw memotong pucuknya tumpeng, semua undangan dipersilakan untuk menyantap habis tumpeng tersebut. Emang enak lhooo!! Selaen tumpengan, tema makanan kali ini adalah: hometown gw - PALEMBANG. Jadi, ada pindang patin dan pempek, tentunya!

Capek makan dan ngobrol?? Alin memilih untuk ngenyot botol susu di kamar gw nan adem. Eh, sepupu2nya yang laen pada ngikutin ide Alin untuk menjajah kamar gw, daaaan akhirnya semua maen UNO di kamar gw. Alin juga membawa keluar semua stuffed animals yang ada di kamar gw.

huuuh....
Selesai juga hari ini. Bahkan kamar gw pun nggak sanggup gw beresin. Pesta bubar jam 3.30 pm dan semua pulaaang. Gw pun tertidur dari jam 4.30 sampe jam 9 pm. hehe... niy gw baru bangun... Laper pula!

my actually beautiful campus

2006-08-16T23:34:00.000+07:00

H E H E H E...

knapa gw baru sadar ya, kalo kampus gw itu keren juga... maybe it's not even cozier than Goethe Universitaet's Biology campus, but, today i just realized something: that my campus is *actually* cozy and beautiful enough. I spent the sunset with someone today, and managed to take some pictures of my campus.

I wanna say HALLO to Julia, who's probably stumbling over this blogspot. ;) Thank you for being such a wonderful friend while I'm in Germany last week. Wish i could stay longer, then u can take me to the icecream bar you like! ;) Oh... would love to!!!

I begin to realize [again] that i should've written this blog in English only... OR in Indonesian only - and not mixing the languages together like salad! *wink* I hate salad, but i can't help myself for writing in both languages! Haha... I have to write something about the language problems that our groups were having on the excursion last week in Germany - that me and Dadit called it Excursion of Lost In Translation.

But that's another entry...

I have new brothers and sisters now!! The class of 2006 begins with 22 people - and only 4 girls. Aaah! How lovely! I am sooo looking forward for the initiation and wouldl ove to welcome them into the world of "hectic"Archaeology! Wooohooo!!! and also... welcome to

the beautiful campus of Faculty of Cultural Studies! ;)

secretly falling apart...

2006-08-16T23:33:00.000+07:00

to me, you're strange and you're beautiful...
selagi resah mendengarkan buaian nada to put a spell on you,
i sunk even more deeper to the feelings and the need of you.

i put a spell on you
before i sleep.. i put a spell on you
and when i wake .. you'll realize that you love me

everything in this life is so random.
Randomly happening, randomly meaningful. i just simply cannot notice when or where it would happen. Some say i'm a psychic, but maybe i am not, for i never been able to predict what would happen next to myself.
why would i think it's important? - je ne sais pas! *shrugged*
everything around these weeks have been very random and meaningful at the same time.
the sparks, the breeze, the chill, the foggy eerie sky, the crescent above the sky... and i just simply cannot get them outta my head, while my lungs crying to be screaming out the name of it, and shouting the will of how i wanna come back for more, with similar feelings, similar eerie foggy mornings, similar smell of coffee...

i secretly fall apart, without wanting you to know, even though your eyes laughs and giggles at my worries. You stepped out of a dream, baby! You are too wonderful to be what you seem.. I never imagine to picture you way too beautiful from what you have been.

aaaack! packs of cigarettes i've smoked and lit them up with your light. still remaining the heat of the sun and the burnt on my skin. i am loving every minute i spent with everything...

i keep questioning, if memories will take me back there, with the similar style, similar sense of humor, similar responsibilities, and similar smell of coffee... will you be back there with me and them?

i am onrust...

2006-08-15T23:25:00.000+07:00

tanpa istirahat - itu arti dari onrust [bld.; juga nama pulau di Kepulauan Seribu].

itu juga arti dari hidup gw akhir2 ini. RKA, KKL 06, Jerman, dan skrg kerjaan pun menumpuk setelah gw pulang. Belum sempet pijet rutin, belum sempet merem lama dikit, eeeh.... gw sudah harus bangun pagi lagi!

Skripsi? Yap.. yap... akan gw kerjakan... yang pasti, gw mau istirohat dulu bentaaaaaaaaaar ajah... Pengennya sih gw libur sehari, dan pijet, trus tidur puas. Biar minggu depan udah bisa meng-corn row rambutku yang indah nan hitam asli Indonesia ini.

Sembari nge-scan foto2 yang harus dideskripsikan dan di-share ama anak2 besok pagi, gw menyempatkan diri meng-update blog ini. Ihikks...

Sisca salah besar waktu bilang Eropa panas.. hahaha... maaf ya, Sis. Tapi ide lipgloss/lipbalm dari elo masih kepake, kok. Buktinya tetep aja bibir gw kering. Gw lagi menyiapkan beberapa tulisan dan bahan presentasi untuk departemen Arkeologi UI, sebagai laporan hasil pandangan mata gw di Jerman kemaren. Jadi, emang kemaren ituh gw BUKANnya liburan, melainkan juga menuntut ilmuwh... kan daku ingin jadi ilmuwati... hjehjehje....

Sis - lha, kok jadi ngobrol ama sisca gini...?! - hiiiks. Seharusnya gw juga punya kesempatan ke Paris, tapi....... dengan begonya gw baru nyadar kalo gw cuma ngisi 16 hari di lembaran permohonan visa gw..!!!!!!!!! Bego banget gak siiiih...!? Kan gw juga pengen ke Itali yang tinggal nyebrang doang dari Jermaaan.... ngihiiikkks.... dan gw cuma bisa menyesali kebodohan gw... semua ini gara2 satpam kedutaan yang bikin gw sewot ampe gak bisa bikin gw mikir...

CinLokk??? pastinya! hehehe.. wah, harus dirahasiakan identitasnya, krn mungkin aja dia juga baca ini blog.... [walau gw tau dia nggak akan ngarti bahasa gw...] aah.. pagi2 berdua di tepi sungai Rhein di Duesseldorf is unforgetable! ;) Makasiy, ya, Ganteeeng! hahahaha...

Yah sudah lah.. gw mau kembali bekerja dengan scanner sayangku itu... ;)

bis dann!

Belanda juga dingin

2006-08-08T12:38:00.000+07:00

Ihh...
gila dingin banget di Blanda, ya! Anehnya, temen2 Blanda dan Jerman gw tetep keukeuh mengunjungi pantai di Noordwijk kemaren malem.... sintttiiing. I chose to stay at the hostel and have some Bailey's and play billiard with Julia, Nicole, and Andy.
Ah well.. gotta go again!
See you in couple of daaays! ;)

ich bin in Deutschland!

2006-08-03T04:26:00.000+07:00

heeeyy!! akhirnya gw di jerman jugaaaa.... aneh banget deh.... di sini udah mulai dingin. Jadi gw agak2 salah bawa baju getoh. karena kan seharusnza masih panas banget! hari pertama gw Frankfurt itu panassssssssssssss banget!
sekarang gw lagi duduk di warnet di Weimar, Jerman Timur. Besok, keliling kota Weimar, trus juga langsung transfer ke Bilzingsleben. Keyboardnya aneh... udah ah..... hehe

diiingiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiinn...... 15 derajat Celcius!!!

temporarily on hiatus

2006-07-27T08:29:00.000+07:00

Slamat pagi, smwanya!
terutama bwat dhani yang lagi chatting ama gw...!!!
blog ini mungkin akan hiatus selama 2 minggu - berhubung gw ngga tau seberapa ok akses internet gw di Jerman, kan gw moving setiap hari.. jadi ga tau apakah sempet dudukin pantat dan ngetik hehe...

Dhani, jangan NAKAL! hehehehe... ini orang selalu ngtawain gw dan gw tau dia puas banget ngtawain gw! Sial!

i'll post if i can post.
Dinda : if u stumble upon here, i miss u already!

see you all in 2 weeks!!
-dee

``` time traveller ```

2006-07-25T20:38:00.000+07:00

Here we meet the foremost archaeologist in Macedonia, Pasko Kuzman. He has been excavating 3,000-year-old submerged sites in Lake Ohrid, and the first fortress of King Philip II, Alexander's father, on its shores. Pasko's signature tools
include three weighty watches he wears on his left wrist, what he calls his
"time machines." With one he says he travels to the Bronze and Neolithic ages.
With another to the future. And with the third, his "archaeological watch" with
its special sensors, he makes his finds. "If it beeps twice it is silver; three
times and I've struck gold." -- dari sini...

haha... aduh, itu orang adaaaa aja... anak2 arkeo juga pada mau lah, kalo punya jam segitu. Khususnya anak prasejarah bisa bikin waktu yang dibagi atas: paleolitik, mesolitik, neolitik... nah, kan enak jadinya kalo mo interpretasi... hehe.. cuma bingung juga sih gmana cara kerjanya itu jam ya biar bisa ngbantu interpretasi kita2 para arkeolog Indonesia!?
Yah.. bagaimanapun caranya; seorang arkeolog emang harus bisa menemukan cara yang yahuuud untuk membantu interpretasinya atas sebuah gejala budaya yang ditunjukkan lewat tinggalan material.

Dosen2 gw nggak berhenti2nya mengingatkan bahwa, "...kita, arkeolog, itu berhadapan sama benda mati yang NGGAK bisa bicara atas dirinya sendiri. Jadi kita lah yang mewakilinya untuk berbicara ttg dirinya, supaya semuanya tahu apa dan kenapa dia dibuat, bagaimana membuatnya, bagaimana memakainya, kapan, dan oleh siapa?" Sebuah kalimat yang simpel untuk diucapkan, tapi begitu elo turun di lapangan, langsung BERASA!! Wuiiih! Ampun deeeh... cuma untuk mendeskripsikan satu benda aja, elo bisa butuh buku banyak begt, belom lagi mencari teori2 yang bisa membantu melandasi hipotesa elo atas benda itu sendiri.

Hmm... knapa gw jadi ngomelin itu ya?

Tadi siang, seorang senior, Bang Anton, mengingatkan, "Nggak semua yang kita liat itu adalah apa yang seharusnya keliatan. Terkadang, apa yang kita liat itu adalah yang PENGEN kita liat."
Habis itu berdebat lah gw ama dia. Menurut gw, kalo dia pake teori itu, akan sangat susah sekali bagi kami2, para arkeolog Indonesia, untuk menjadi objektif dalam melihat, menelaah, dan meneliti suatu artefak, belum lagi kalo itu fitur [reeekkk!!]... Bisa2, apa yang gw liat, beda juga ama apa yang temen gw liat. Jadi, kesimpulannya: gmana caranya supaya menyamakan persepsi, sudut pandang, dan point of view [bedanyaaaa.....?]?

Yaah... begitulah kalo gw keseringan menghabiskan waktu sama senior yang satu ini... Kalo nggak ttg yang gaib2, pasti ttg filsafat atau prinsip2 dasar yang melandasi pemikiran manusia -- yang kami bahas. Hehe.. untungnya gw nggak sekelas ama dia waktu ngambil mata kuliah umum Sejarah Pemikiran Modern sama Bapa Wayan! Bisa2 gw diskusi tanpa henti ama dia!

Arkeolog --> satu kata sakti yang dari dulu bisa bikin gw mrinding. Sekarang, gw masuk ke dalam dunia arkeolog, terlibat scr langsung dengan artefak2 yang dulu cuma bisa gw baca di buku, kotor2an ama tanahnya Indonesia yang mengubur sebagian besar artefak2 tsb, menderita karna kulit yang terbakar panasnya matahari Indonesia yang kadang2 suka nggak bisa distel derajatnya dari Bumi [hehehe - remotenya ilang], menggigil karena angin dingin pegunungan Indonesia, dan sebagainya.

Kenapa masih ada aja pertanyaan: apakah cinta gw sama arkeologi?

Analisis awal mengenai kenapa pertanyaan itu muncul adh, karna menurut gw: gw adh seorang perempuan yang masih mencari jatidiri. Belom nemu, emang. Ntah kapan?! Jadi pertanyaan ini muncul sebagai *pelengkap* -- nggak sih -- sebenernya nge-cek doang, apakah sdh benar pilihanku ini di Arkeologi!?

Haaa??? ini kan tahun ke-EMPAAAT? Loe lagi skripsi, lhooo!!! Kok baru nanyaaa???

hehehe... nggak, kok.. gw bcanda. Jawabannya: kalo gw masih mau idealis ama keinginan dan mimpi2 gw waktu gw SD, yap: gw berada di tempat yang tepat. Sampai kemudian muncul pertanyaan, "Ampe kapan sih, orang bisa mempertahankan keidealismeannya? Sampai batas mana??"

Nah, itu gw bahas laen kali aja yaaa... carrier gw baru penuh setengah niy... jadi bingung mau masukin apa lagi!? Baju udah banyak banget gw bawa.. Jeans aja ampe DUA!?

2 more days...

2006-07-25T08:42:00.000+07:00

... before my departure.
what have i got in mind? there's plenty running around it these days. love life, social life, study life, future, and simply everything. Lost the lust of going to Germany too fast, i'm not even on the plane yet! *eergh*

i havent packed my things up! ich hab' nicht gepacken! ist das ok? weiss es ich nicht... :( dass habe ich keine Lust nicht mehr fuer diesem Exkursionteil. Was ist denn passieren, Dee? Weiss' nix! Ecck!! It's just kind of hard for me to pack my clothes and my books into the carrier, remembering that i am not going to see my friends for 2 weeks! 2 whole damn weeks! and i should've shared this with one of them - u know who u are!!! But, it's ok. You'll be in my mind wherever I wander through the Germany lands.

Oh well, u can find things about my excursion here. I think - i HOPE - it's gonna be interesting and rewarding for me. At least for a new experience abroad, backpacking with bunch of people i dont know. Someone said to me, "you're an independent person, and i am sure you can do it alone - a.k.a. without me."

Ach, ok, dann... ich hoffe, will ich da viel spass machen. :)
bis dann!
ganz Liebe,
ich -

Nyamuk dan Mati Lampu

2006-07-23T21:14:00.000+07:00

ih, nyebelin deh!
Masa tadi pagi ada pemberitahuan kalo lampu di RT gw bakal mati jam 11 malem ampe jam 6 pagi! ihiiks... padahal kan itu waktu yang PW untuk online. ;(

Terus sekarang gw lagi diserang ama nyamuk2 nakal yang ganas dan tajem banget sungutnya! Beda deh ama nyamuk2 Batujaya ato nyamuk2 Trowulan yang agak lebih lunak tapi sama aja nyebelinnya! Errrgh...

Tau ah! gw dah ngomel2 mulu dari tadi gara2 nyamuk2 ini terus aja menyerang diri gw nan imoet! hahahhahaha...

Besok, tetep ke kampus, kalo lampu udah nyala, i'll be online, boo! ;)

Ps : bu Sisca, betul banget apa yang Anda bilang : perbedaan itu membawa warna! ;)
pps : Dinda--> bienvenudo a mi blogspot! ;)

^^ Tak ada yang sama ^^

2006-07-22T08:18:00.000+07:00

Memang, bener banget kalo nggak ada yang SAMA! Hmm... butuh beberapa waktu dan kejadian untuk sadar akan hal itu! Walaupun, sebenernya gw juga udah dilatih untuk aware akan segala keberbedaan yang bakal dihadapi dalam hidup. :)

The point is? Nothing. Gw tidak menitikberatkan kepada sesuatu yang mau dibahas di sini. Cuma pengen bilang kalo berbeda itu indah. Di situlah tempatnya kita belajar ttg sesuatu yang baru.

Kenapa gw ngbahas ini? Karena, kata Dinda gw lagi error -> Jadinya gw meracau. Hahaha... maaf ya, nDa, gw jadikan elo korban kemeracauan gw hari ini.

Tidak ke kampus, berarti bermalas2an di rumah! Ah, indahnya! Jam segini, bulan lalu, gw lagi ada di deket kotak gali nan panas dan nyebelin itu. Menunggu korlap bilang 15 minute lagi LAUT! Ihiikss... sekarang, gw brasa banget kalo itu adalah kerjaan paling indah yang pernah gw dapet. Daripada kaya begini, di rumah, nggak tau mau ngapain dan yang ada makin ndut ajah.. padahal... sempat berniat mau jadi 45 [.. then we'll talk *winks*] nyahahahaha... ya mana mungkin juga sih.. Kalo gw jadi 45 kg, yang ada gw cungkring banget. Udah kaga tinggi, cungkring pula! Mana bisa jadi model! [maksut loooe?]

Yah, sudahlah. Lagi dengerin soundtracknya KKL niy. Kings of Convinience *I'd Rather Dance With You* Hahaha... Biasanya lagu ini diiringi dengan celotehan Vitra dan Rekso, serta gerakan2 aneh yang dia bilang "dansa". Mana di bus waktu pulang lagu ini diputer berulang2 ampe gw mual!! Ihiiks... untungnya ada orang baik yang menawarkan Casiopea di kuping gw.. *makasiiy*

"Ayo, semuanya DANSA!!!!"

Quizas Perhaps Mungkin!?

2006-07-21T10:28:00.000+07:00

Peut-être oui
peut-être non
Ca m'est égal de toute façon
À gauche,
à droite,
ça, je n'sais pas
De haut en bas,
oui, pourquoi pas
Un jour où l'autre, on verra bien. - Coralie Clement

Haha.. lagu paling nggak jelas niy! Jelas2 sih, soundtrack gw for the month! haha... Soale, gw BINGUNG! tapi bingung yang ini bikin senyum2 sendiri, bikin ketawa2.... haha! Aneh banggets deh kejadian 2 hari ini... Tapi, gw tidak lupa bersyukur sama Tuhan udah dikasih kesempatan untuk mengalaminya! [Apa seh, Dee?!]

Saya baru saja kembali dari suatu perjalanan dan menemukan. Menemukan segelas
teh manis hangat yang paling enak sedunia. Karena dibuat dengan cinta dan
diberikan dengan senyuman yang tulus. Hanya segelas teh manis hangat di pagi
hari, tapi dengan rasa yang luar biasa. Manisnya pas, hangatnya pas.
dari blognya mbak May

Hehe... jadi inget juga kebiasaan gw kalo lagi di highaltitude. Selalu rajin masak2 dan bikin kopi ato teh anget penuh cinta buat orang2 di deket gw. Ah, menyenangkan sekali! Hanya saja, untuk kali ini --> 4, 5, dan 6 Agustus gw nggak bisa rajin2 bikinin mereka kopi ato teh lagi. Temen2 gw berencana ikut ke Pangguyangan bersama Dody Johanjaya [Dody Jenong], sang produser Jejak Petualang yang waktu itu ilang di Papua dan kebetulan adalah alumni Arkeo UI [senior gw], untuk merayakan keselamatan dia dari musibah itu... Ihikks.... padahal banyak banget yang ikuttt, sedangkan gw lagi di Jerman tanggal segitu!! *tears*

I miss hiking up the hills and mountains. I miss the chill, I miss having my cigarettes on the riverside, I miss the morning breeze, I miss the people, I miss the togetherness with my friends up on the mountains or on the slopes! Ihiiikss... yaah, semoga mereka have a good time aja. Gw bakal ndenger crita doong, pastinya! ;)

Hehehe.... muka2 capek tapi puas yang dipamerkan di depan kamera, selalu bisa bikin gw ketawa inget proses perjalanan panjang dengan segala tanjakan dan turunan, sungai, sawah [yang bikin gw jatoh gubrak gubrak gara2 dinda bikin ancur treknya], jurang, hutan, dan segala macam daon2an yang bikin gw gatel2 abis itu. Inget waktu naek di Cibalay, salah satu trek menuju Gunung Salak, dalam keadaan hujan dan berkabut + asap rokok kami, waktu berhenti jalan, badan jadi berasap. Hiii... sempet serem sendiri liat badan loe kayak kebakaran, tapi dinginnya najiiizzzz deeh!!! Kangen banget deh, sama perempuan2 perkasaku yang tahan banting, tahan hujan, dan segala macam derita untuk survive di alam bebas.

Handphone kerendem waktu nyebrang sungai? Pernah.

Nyusruk di sawah? Pernah.

Pipis di balik semak tengah malem buta? Pernah.

Nyaris nyasar bertiga di Lebak Sibedug, Halimun? Pernah.

Kram kaki di Halimun? Pernah.

Nglamun ngliatin kunang2 ampe dibokerin ama itik? Pernah.

Nyaris kena bandang waktu nyebrang sungai? Pernah.

Parno nyebrang jembatan bambu gara2 temen gw kejeblos? Pernah.

Nyaris kejatohan uler dari atas pohon di Baduy? Pernah.

And i still wanna go back to those places I've been!

Sedang jatuh cinta [LAGI]

2006-07-21T10:12:00.000+07:00

adakah waktu yang tak berbatas untukku merasa bahagia

saat-saat aku jatuh cinta

saat kuterbang jauh ke sana

s e l a l u d e n g a n m u, kasihku

selamanya

selalu denganmu, cintaku bersama

Kaulah matahari dalam hidupku

dan kaulah cahaya bulan di malamku

hadirmu slalu akan kutunggu

cintamu slalu akan kurindu

selalu denganmu,

kasihku slamanya

selalu denganmu,

cintaku bersama

tahukah kau diriku tak sanggup hidup bila kau jauh dariku

kuingin dipelukmu slalu

dan tiada lagi batas ruang waktu

tahukah kau diriku tak sanggup hidup bila kau jauh dariku

kuingin dipelukmu slalu

tuhan tetapkan rasa cintaku ini

hanya untukmu selalu setia selama2nya...

>>TOMPI<<

Communications will always be a problem for both of us. I know and I am aware of that! This unexplainable kind of relationship my friends talked about, well... i start to give it a thought. But i dont know what to expect.

Kangen, BEGO!!!! Hiiiks... i only got one more week before my departure to Germany, and he's away from me right now! Arrrrghhh!!! Pengen marah2, hikkss... pengen nyusul juga! Ihiiiiks.... tapi, apa daya, gw harus tinggal di rumah!!!

It's been quite like a rollercoaster ride and I enjoyed it! Huwaaaaaaaaa!!! *cries* Bring me back my times!!!! Jadi inget, waktu dia bilang, "Gw jadi sadar, waktu itu ternyata berharga karena nggak bisa diulang." Betul banget, Sayang! And i always enjoy my time with you, bahkan saat elo ngambek ato BT. hehehe... It's very strange of how I feel about him, right now. I've been around for 3 years as a friend, then suddenly everything changes. Nggak ada yang bisa ngejelasin itu kok, dan gw juga kayanya nggak butuh penjelasan. Hehehe... *winks*

Mengutip kalimat Anne, "Udah dirasain aja, jangan dipikirin.."

LET IT FLOW AND IT WILL GLOW... >>oksy

Artefak LAGI!?

2006-07-18T10:20:00.000+07:00

Benda-benda kaya gini niyh yang lagi bikin gw pusing minggu ini. Dapet kerjaan untuk mendeskripsikan beberapa artefak kuna yang menjadi koleksi seseorang. Hm... sangat menggiurkan untuk dimasukkin ke dalam tas, emang... hehe.. buat koleksi di rumah. Tapi, itu sama aja looting!

Nah, sebenernya masalah deksripsi itu adalah hal yang sangat mendasar untuk dipelajari di arkeologi. Dari awal gw masuk arkeo, hal pertama yang diajarin dan dititikberatkan adalah bagaimana cara mendeskripsi yang benar - dengan objektif tanpa subjektivitas. Sampe sekarang, gw pun masih suka agak sangat amat berhati-hati dalam memilih kata2 [harus ilmiah] untuk mendeksripsikan suatu benda, padahal gw udah EMPAT tahun di arkeo! Hihi... bukan hal yang memalukan kok. Senior2 juga begitu adanya. Hahaha....

Tuh kan.... Timur barusan aja telpon gw dengan segala kebingungan dia untuk mendeskripsi artefak yang dia ambil! Hihihi... lucu deh kita!!! ;) Semoga aja ini kerjaan baru malah bikin kita jadi jago mendeskripsi! Terutama buat orang2 yang sering megang dan meriksa laporan kaya gw dan Timur. *psscht*

if this is communication

2006-07-18T08:26:00.000+07:00

i disconnect!

i'm talking and talking but i dont know how to connect!
yap! I am tired of being involved with the wrong persons.
why? becuz it's never right for me.
oftenly crying and preserving the undeniable feelings for one wrong person to another.

tau nggak [kamu yang nggak akan pernah baca ini blog!] ... ?
I hold a record for being TOO patient
With your kind of hesitation
I need you, you want me
But I don’t know how to connect,
so I disconnect...!

Sekarang aku capek dan butuh waktu buat diriku sendiri, because you never really seem to count me in to your life pages. You once said i am inspiring, that i am the only who understands you other than any body else!? Then what? Well, i guess it wasnt that hot, after all.

I've left the site, means i have left you too - BEHIND

Were you important for me? YES

Were you meaningful? YES

Were you special? YES - for quite sometimes

Did I care about you? WAY TOO MUCH

and what are those things lead me to? NOTHING

So, Sayangku: Maaf, but I disconnect us right now. I don't think there would be a proper goodbye for you. Boleh2 aja aku dulu sayang [baca: 2 bulanan yang lalu] banget -- but, that leads us NOWHERE! Mendingan kita bimbingan skripsi aja dulu, masing2...!

ok, Sayang?!

More news

2006-07-17T21:27:00.000+07:00

CILACAP, KOMPAS - Gempa bumi 6,8 skala richter yang berpusat di Samudra
Hindia, Senin (17/7), sekitar pukul 16.00 menimbulkan gelombang pasang di laut
selatan Jawa terutama di perairan Kabupaten Cilacap dan Kebumen. Gelombang
setinggi empat meter yang masuk ke darat sejauh 100 meter itu kontan menimbulkan
kepanikan warga. Hingga pukul 20.00 sedikitnya 15 orang dilaporkan ditemukan
dalam keadaan meninggal sementara diperkirakan lebih dari seratus orang lainnya
hilang.
Data dari Badan Meteorologi dan Geofisika Balai Wilayah III Cilacap
menunjukkan gempa berkekuatan 6,8 skala richter itu terjadi pukul 16.13. Selama
13 menit sejak pukul 16.00 hingga 16.13 telah terjadi empat kali gempa dari 5,4
skala richter hingga 6,8 skala richter. Pusat gempa terjadi di 9,4 Lintang
Selatan dan 107,10 Bujur Timur, dengan kedalaman 33 kilometer. Jarak pusat gempa
dengan Kota Cilacap lebih dari 100 meter.
Sementara itu dari Kebumen dilaporkan lebih dari 300 kapal nelayan di
pesisir Pantai Ayah, Pantai Pasir, dan Karangdhuwur remuk terhempas ombak.
Palang Merah Indonesia Kebumen telah menemukan satu jenazah yang diidentifikasi
berana Umi (10) di Pantai Ayah. Sementara 25 orang lainnya belum ditemukan.

--- dari kompas.com

who's next!?

Another Quake!!!!!!!!!

2006-07-17T21:11:00.000+07:00

This i got from YahooNews and Reuters:

JAKARTA (Reuters) - A strong undersea earthquake struck off the southern
coast of Indonesia's Java island on Monday, triggering a tsunami that swept away
wooden buildings and killed at least five people, officials said. There were no
reports of casualties or damage in any other country. The search for victims was
continuing, Indonesian President Susilo Bambang Yudhoyono told a news
conference, adding that five people were known to have died.
"An earthquake
has happened and then was followed by a tsunami on the southern coast of Ciamis
(regency)," he said. "It has been reported to me that five people have been
declared dead and the search is still going on to find those who probably have
been swept away by the tsunami waves." A tsunami warning for Java's southern
coast and nearby Christmas Island, to the south of the Indonesian archipelago,
was issued by the U.S.-based Pacific
Tsunami Warning Center. Police on
Christmas Island, owned by Australia, said there was no damage there.
India
also issued a warning for the Andaman and Nicobar islands, which were badly hit
by the 2004 tsunami, but officials said there was no real threat. The Maldives,
a low-lying chain of islands to the southwest of India, also issued a
warning.
A massive earthquake in December 2004 triggered a tsunami that left
170,000 people killed or missing in Indonesia's Aceh province. Tens of thousands
more died elsewhere, the majority in Sri Lanka, India and Thailand.
On
Monday, a policeman at Pangandaran Beach near Indonesia's Ciamis town, around
270 km (168 miles) southeast of Jakarta, told Metro TV that six deaths had been
recorded but the toll could be much higher.
"Everything looks like a mess.
Buildings on the southern coast have been damaged. Only permanent buildings are
still standing," said the policeman, called Agus.
The area is a popular local
tourist spot with many small hotels on the beach and is close to a nature
reserve.
The waves washed away wooden cottages and kiosks lining the
shoreline facing the Indian Ocean, witnesses told local media.
"I think there
will be a lot of fatalities because probably they are buried under rubble. The
road to the scene is covered by rubbish brought by the waves," the policeman
added.
PANIC
"We were in panic and running. Almost an entire village was
inundated by water. All people were running to the mountain," a villager in the
area told Metro TV.
A woman who said she was a witness had earlier told
Jakarta-based Radio Elshinta that waves came several hundred metres inland at
Pangandaran Beach.
Hendri Subakti, head seismologist at the West Java
earthquake center, told Reuters the waves were a maximum of 1.5 metres
high.
Some people were still fleeing the coastal area hours later as rumours
spread that there could be another quake and tsunami.
The Pacific Tsunami
Warning Center had said the quake, which hit at 0819 GMT, was of 7.2 magnitude.
Indonesia's state meteorology and geophysics agency initially rated the
quake at 5.5 magnitude, but later changed that to 6.8, and said there were two
significant aftershocks.
An official at the country's main fixed line
operator, Telkom, said the phone system in the area was down.
Some occupants
of high-rise Jakarta buildings felt the quake, which had an epicentre more than
40 kilometres under the Indian Ocean 180 km off Pangandaran beach, and fled
their offices.
Earthquakes are frequent in Indonesia, the world's fourth
most populous country. In May, an earthquake near the central Java city of
Yogyakarta killed more than 5,700 people.
Indonesia's 17,000 islands sprawl
along a belt of intense volcanic and seismic activity, part of what is called
the "Pacific Ring of Fire."
The Pertamina state oil company's 348,000
barrel-per-day (bpd) Cilacap refinery was not affected by the quake and tsunami,
a Pertamina official said.
"The refinery is operating as usual. There were
rising waves, but now the water has receded," the official said.
(With
additional reporting by Achmad Sukarsono and Diyan Jari)

short vacation in Garut...

2006-07-17T09:17:00.000+07:00

Why Garut? I have no idea. I thought the choice of Garut as a vacation point is a bad idea... BUT, i turned out to be mistaken. ;) After stopping by in Bandung for quick breakfast and quick look at Edward Forrer's shop, we continue the trip to Garut. We checked in to the hotel by 1.30 pm. All i can say about the resort is *whooaaaaaaaaaa...................*
As you can see in the picture, it's a marvellous place. It's a resort located somewhere in Garut, with a lake in the middle of it, and the cottages floating upon the lake. Arrgh, so romantic.
This place was meant to be a hideaway from everyday's hecticness. And indeed. I found it here. Too quiet for me, but it's great! I absolutely want to go back someday with my friends. This is a great place to spend some quality times with your friends. I love it, i just love the way it provides everything through nature.

For more information you can click through their website : kampung sampireun.com

semua yang bercerita

2006-07-16T10:27:00.000+07:00

intinya: hidup gw lagi sepi banget!
rencana keberangkatan gw ke Jerman minggu depan sama sekali tidak membuat hidup jadi lebih berwarna. Benci banget deh sama musim transisi kayak gini.

Transisi gw dari mahasiswa full time, menjadi mahasiswa penulis skripsi.

Transisi dari seorang yang biasa aja, jadi seorang yang menginspirasi orang lain.

Transisi dari seorang yang menginspirasi, seseorang yang menyebalkan dan patut disingkirkan.

Transisi dari seorang sophomore, menjadi seorang senior - yang mungkin taun ini udah gak dapet tugas di pos lagi pas TL.

Brasa mulai kehilangan teman2 yang dulu selalu ada di sekeliling gw. Semua udah pada sibuk dengan urusannya masing2. Ajeng: udah mau sidang. Anne: masih sibuk ama skripsi Sanskritnya dan juga segala bentuk bisnis dan kerjanya di bidang per-guide-an. Dinda: mulai sibuk ama RKAnya. Githa: juga mau sidang. Vera: sibuk juga ama persiapan skripsinya. Begitu juga Indri, Dai, Tile, Mak, Olive, Randu, Timur, dan semua orang yang masih waras untuk mengerjakan skripsinya.

Apa, ya kira2 hal yang bisa mewarnai hidup gw lagi?

i dont like shopping at the mall, i dont like clubbing every night, i dont like the metropolic way of life...

gw suka hiking di lereng bukit ato gunung, gw suka maen aer di tepi sungai ato sawah, gw suka jatoh tanpa alasan penting di jalan berlumut [udah tau lumut, masih diinjek!], gw suka nglamun sambil nungguin kunang-kunang terbang di malem hari, gw suka tiduran di tengah jalan sepi sambil ngliatin mars dan rasi Orion di langit subuh, gw suka berselimutkan sarung di malam yang dingin - ditemani nikotin dan alunan gitar, serta kafein, juga teman bicara.

Semua tempat yang kudatangi dapat berceloteh riang tentang kejadian2 lucu dan aneh yang pernah terjadi.

Semua jejak yang kutinggalkan juga bercerita tentang betap perihnya telapak kakiku yang menapak tanpa henti.

Semua gambar yang kurekam dengan kamera dan pikiran dapat bercerita tentang kebersamaan yang terjebak dan tak bisa keluar.....

untuk semua yang bercerita tentang perjalananku:

semua yang ada di sini. Terima kasih

Mengapa kita???

2006-07-15T22:00:00.000+07:00

Lagi dengerin Naif niiyh.. Lagu yang selalu mengingatkan gw akan Bang Pero dan semua skandal yang dia punya...

apa mauku, apa maumu?
slalu saja menjadi satu masalah yang tak kunjung henti
bukan maksudku
bukan maksudmu
untuk selalu meributkan hal yang itu2 saja!!!!

nyahahaha....! Pero dan perempuan2nya, itu lucu sekali... Jadi inget waktu dia kita kerjain abis2an di Pangguyangan, selama di perjalanan menuju Tugu Gede, menyanyikan lagu kebangsaan tersebut, dan dia *ngambek* boongan -- jongkok di deket pohon, trus meratap... hahaha..... niy orang lucu banget deh! Sok cool getoh, padahal NGGAK sama sekali! Lucu juga liat muka stress-nya dia waktu jadi PO Acara-nta TL 2006. Hmm.... ampe dituduh yang nggak2 pula sama orang rumah, ya, Ro!? Terima aja... itu emang resiko seorang PO Acara! Nyahahaha...

Entah knapa gw lagi suka banget dengerin semua lagu2 yang biasa diputar dan digenjreng ama yang pegang gitar kalo anak2 lagi pada ngumpul dan bernyanyi. Mungkin karena gw kangeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeen banget ama mereka, yah? Udah lama begt gw gak jalan ama anak2 dan that's why i miss them. I miss the mist, the mountains, the rivers, the ups and downs, the guitars, the laughters, the everything that could happen during the trip. Seperti apa yang bisa elo lihat di sebelah kanan ini.. Foto gw dan rekan2 di Gunung Padang Januari 2005. A trip i will NEVER EVER forget! *laughs*

Mengapa kita... [sesuai dengan judul entry] sudah jarang jalan2, temaan? Nggak tau, ya kalo gw kangen banget! Sial, mana sekarang gw udah harus bikin skripsi pula! Makin jarang aja ntar kita bersua!!! Anak 2003 udah jadi seniors, sekarang! hiiikksss... what's that made me??

Love can damage your health

2006-07-11T07:51:00.000+07:00

it's true!
you can just simply damaged by love.
right now, with nothing to do - though i have to go to the campus,
but i start to think that it's time to change the blog template one more time.
it's been a while with the FROZEN theme, and i love it. :)
Browsing through the blogskins.com, trying to find something beautiful
to replace the frozen template.
oh my God, now it's even harder to find a template that speaks about ME and my style. ;)

after a while : found it! ;) it's called Ghost Butterflies by sixseven.

kenapa jadi ilfiiil??

2006-07-06T18:01:00.000+07:00

Heran deh... beberapa minggu lalu, perasaan... gw sayaaaang banget ama niy orang. Tapi kok, hari ini tiba2 gw ilfil ama dia, ya? Bukan karena udah 4 hari nggak ketemu [walah!] Tapi, ada sesuatu yang menyebabkan gw juga sedikit cemas ttg keputusan gw melakukan perjalanan jauh besok pagi. Segalanya! gw cemas akan segalanya!! Gw takuuut banget akan sesuatu yang nggak bisa gw sangka datengnya! Yakin deh gw...

u wont admit you love me

and so how am i ever to know

you only tell me perhaps perhaps perhaps

a milion times i ask you

and then i ask you over again

you only answer

perhaps perhaps perhaps....!!!

if you cant make your mind up

we'll never get started

and i just dont wanna wind up

being parted -- broken hearted

so if you really love me -- say yes

but if you dont, dear

confess and please dont tell me

perhaps perhaps perhaps!

Nyebelin tau nggak sih elooo!!!!!!

so if you really love me
say yes
but if you dont dear confess
and pls dont tell me
quizas perhaps mungkin!!!!?!

ich liebe mein Leben

2006-07-04T13:01:00.000+07:00

waruum??? denn habe ich viel Zeit mit meine Freunde!

hahah... a very simple reason, but for me my friends are everything in this world. I never thought what would i be without them! I have been dreaming to enroll on this world i am living now, and to prove it right, i love sitting, eating, drinking, smoking, chatting, crying, raging, and doing things with my friends in my dreamworld! :) I have good times just to look at old pictures from since i entered the world of dirty archaeology until today. My latest trip was KKL 2006 and that was a blast! I never wanted to leave the city, then. But i still have to go home. I left my heart in Trowulan... maybe someday, someone will excavate it and give it back to me. *blaaaaaaaaaah* me, and my stupid hopes. Someone once told me that i have been the inspiration (untuk bikin kopi, cinta?) to do things. Oh well, i never thought that i would be such inspiration for someone else. Becuz, i just live the way i like to live my life. *winks* Live the simplest, darling - then you'll be me! Hehe... Love you! Aaargh, BT deh, masa sekarang gw stuck di rumah without a thing to do. Hal ini sangat berkebalikan dengan keadaan gw minggu lalu yang masih stress mikirin gmana caranya ngedalemin kotak gali tanpa nyapekin anak2 kelompok gw?! hehe... baru kali ini gw ngliat ada ketua-ketua kelompok yang sangat berambisius untuk mbuka kotak banyak. Kayanya Bambang dulu nggak gt deh ama kelompok gw! Apa karena dia nggak peka, ya? hehe.. maap, MbanG! Love you too! Makasih ya, atas ilmunya. Tapi gw yakin, Batujaya BUKAN tantrayana! dari mana pula ide mu ituuuu, ketuaa!? Jangan kau jerumuskan kami! hehehe...

Panasnya Depok ato Bekasi sekarang jadi anget di kulit gw, karena gw sudah digojlok dengan panasnya TRW yang punya matahari 9 biji!!! Bujug! I aint gonna lie to you... sumpeee... panas banget! Kulitku berubah menjadi SANGAT COKLAT! ngalah2in mesin tanning, tapi masih nggak kalah dibanding kulitnya Tile... hehehehe.. maap juga, Bang! Staf yang satu itu emang nyebelin apalagi kalo udah menggendong TOAnya tercinta untuk mencet tombol sirene dalam rangka memanggil segala penjuru basecamp untuk bersiap menuju lapangan... sebenernya, seluruh staf ato orang yang megang TOA itu emang jadi nyebelin! hahaha...

TOA tercinta menjadi benda yang sangat disebelin - dan menimbulkan trauma bagi sesiapa yang mendengarkan suaranya. Tuiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiit.... pasti kedengeran setiap pagi, siang, sore, dan malam. Nyebelin gak?? Loe baru merebahkan kepala, menyentuh kasur, dan memejamkan mata, tiba2 itu bunyi nyalang di kuping elo..! Errrgh... dari KKL kemaren gw juga sebel banget ama benda itu! Bo, ya gw ketemu lagi aja dulu ama ini benda untuk tahun kedua kalinya!!! Brengseeeekk.... tapi, lama2 cinta juga ama ini benda, terutama, if you got the authority to push the sirene button! Nyahaha.... *ktawa setan*

Beginilah kondisi saat mengerjakan laporan akhir, yang jadinya diperpanjang hingga 2 hari. Entah apa yang menyebabkan pengerjaan jadi lama. Mungkin karena temuannya sejibun2 kali yaa?? Hwaduh, mana para ketua kelompok pake dipusingkan dengan berubahnya prosedur pengerjaan laporan, lagi! Yaaa... komplit sudah lah penyebab sakit kepala kami... Oya... gw juga heran, semua peserta pada sakit!? Gw juga sih, tapi tentunya tidak menghambat pekerjaan. Be professional, doong! *smile* Toh, "obat" gw ada 2 biji di TRW. Maksudnya Lights Menthol ama Coke. hehehe... Hmm, kangen deh sama Moccachino Ting-nya Ditto! ;) Makasiy banget ya, Dit! Best fella!

Yang di atas ini adalah foto para ketua yang memimpin 10 kelompok di TRW. It's hell-of-fun to spend some quality times sama mereka (lagi). Setiap sore, setelah penggalian, kita2 nongkrong minum es degan ato soda gembira di warung deket Salon Yanes (hahahahahhaha....) ato juga sambil makan bakso yang super gede tapi super murah di warung yang sama. Sambil makan/minum, kita2 curhat ttg kelompok masing2 dan progress-nya setiap hari. Hmm... beberapa ketua juga ikut tepar karena penyakit yang tidak diinginkan (ataupun diinginkan). Beberapa ada yang sambil marah2 curhat ttg kelompoknya, beberapa ada yang cuma senyum2 puas atas kelompoknya, beberapa juga ada yang akhirnya pasrah (ya sudahlah) akan keadaan kelompoknya, ato malah cuma sanggup tersenyum aseeem banget (hehe,.,,, timur...!). Pahit manis kita tanggung bersama, bukan begitu?? BUKAN! haha.. yaa... resiko ditanggung sendiri.

Hmm... KKL taun depan? mungkin beberapa dari kami sudah lulus, shg tidak masuk lagi ke dalam daftar panitia KKL taun depan. Siapa aja? Only God knows the answer. The point is, terimakasih Tuhan, telah membuat gw makin mencintai hidup gw yang dipenuhi dengan warna-warni lukisanMu, dihiasi dengan teman2ku yang merupakan ciptaanMu yang sempurna.

July 2006 Overview

2006-07-04T08:45:00.000+07:00

Look for a certain 'je ne sais quoi' clarity to come into your life at some point on the 1st. Is the sun shining just so on some of those dusty corners of your emotional world? Is the view from the kitchen's picture window that much sharper than usual? Do you suddenly see where you're coming from, and where you think you want to go? Could be. On the 5th, you start to take this clarity and apply it (ruthlessly!) to an obscure problem that's been plaguing you. Great! On the 10th, you rediscover a certain joy in the little things: pancake syrup, petunias, a well-designed Excel sheet. Your patience serves you well on the 14th, and by the 19th, you're reminded (again!) just how many people like and respect you. On the 23rd, spend time taking care of things around the house (cleaning that kitchen picture window? Dusting the emotional corner?). By the 28th, you're revisited by that hard-to-put-your-finger-on sense of clarity. Enjoy it!

July 2006 Romance

2006-07-04T08:44:00.000+07:00

You're not the kind of person to let an opportunity slip through your fingers. On the 1st, if you see somebody on the street and get a good feeling in your gut -- a feeling that tells you this person could be important to your life -- don't forget that you're the kind of person who takes advantage of situations like these and asks for their phone number. Don't forget that you're not the kind of person who suddenly gives in to a (perfectly understandable) case of nerves and walks by without saying anything. This month, your key phrase is: Seize the day. On the 5th, you might seize and seize and still come up empty-handed -- just try again! Do something new after work on the 9th -- and don't forget to seize the evening! The 14th is a real 'just do it' day for you. What will come of it, romancewise? On the 19th, you have a good idea (and they like it, too). You might learn something on the 23rd, and on the 28th, you could already be applying your new romantic knowledge.

i will never know...

2006-07-03T20:07:00.000+07:00

if i never tried.
hehe,,,, bulan lalu gw tersadarkan atas seseorang yang tiba2 bermakna banyak bagi gw. sebenernye ini orang udah ada di depan mata gw sejak kapan tau, dan baru sekarang taksu nya menyerbu! hwalahh! yang pasti, ini orang is the sweetest person ever, dia bisa bikin gw nglamunin dia, ngkikik2 sendiri krn gw ngliatin dia lagi puyeng ato pusing, bikin gw tersipu malu, atas apapun yang gw pikirkan ttg dia, hebatnya lagi, dia bisa bikin gw kalang kabut kalo dia lagi ngambek.. pffft... a very difficult person, tapi justru di situlah tantangannya... betul, sayang?

aku kembali

2006-06-30T16:05:00.000+07:00

dengan segala kepuasan hati dan jiwa serta raga.
malah gw nggak pengen pulang dari situs.ihiiiks
kali ini... gw menggali dengan penuh kasih... halllaaah.. kepada kotak gali ku yang lucu2 itu...
memang mereka sarat dengan temuan, yang bikin bete ngurusinnya.. tapi, begitu hari terakhir, gw brasanya kaya bakal ninggalin itu tempat selamanya... padahal gw tau kalo semua yang udah gw dan tim gw kerjain itu ngga sia2. dan i will be back next time, Trowulan... i fell in love with you. ;)
hmmm... permainan emosi yang dijalani memang agak berat, dan i got thru it! ;)
heran deh, gw ampe bisa nangis waktu mau ninggalin kotak gali pas hari terakhir.
Batujaya aja ngga bikin gw nangis, tapi... yang ini beda... kaya elo mengasuh anak kecil, yang terus tumbuh dan tiba2 elo harus ninggalin dia sendirian...
gw ga tega ninggalin kotak itu, dan juga... gw masih penasaran ama itu kotak... dan lahan2 yang belom digali di sekitarnya... gw yakin.. pasti masih banyak hal yang bisa gw ungkap waktu gw ngebuka semua lahan.
yap, rumahnya orang Majapahit, dari abad ke-14...!
love it...!!

i will post the pictures a little bit later, cuz i am really tired. ;P

leaving!

2006-06-15T07:33:00.000+07:00

tomorrow i will be leaving on a dig! ;)
so... tata for 2 weeks! :)

hugs
Dee

akhirnya!

2006-06-12T06:47:00.000+07:00

hari ini akhirnya dateng juga!
hmm, apakah gw akan beruntung? ato malah jauh lebih sial dari 7 bulan yang lalu?
hari ini.... dan besok adh penentuan masa depan gw. I hope that i dont stutter in front of the audience, becuz that's gonna affect my results!! eeck, i really really hope t hat i can get through this beautifully... so, that my proposal is passed through the desk!!!
maybe i am not good at ending ANY of my RELATIONSHIP beautifully... but, in the academic field, so far, i wouldn't have to worry about ended up NOT BEAUTIFUL. Though, i can't - wouldn't DARE - to predict the result now...

i even dont know what to wear!?

menghitung hari....

2006-06-08T20:45:00.000+07:00

yuuuuk....
4 hari lagi menjelang seminar yang menentukan jalan hidup gw ke depan...
cuma ada 2 pilihan :
1. gw lulus, dan bisa lanjut ke skripsi...
2. gw gak lulus, dan it means that i have to REWIND ALL that i have been thru this semester, on the next one!!!

ecck,,, Timur knows best what's on our minds...
And next week, i will be leaving on a dig! yeaaah! my third dig, and my second official dig! yaaay! love it... i am gonna love it!! ;)

mbok insaaaaf ngono lhoooo....

2006-05-31T07:42:00.000+07:00

masa gw baca di detik.com kalo bisnis SARKEM tetep buka... buset dahh.... niy org2 bukannya pada insap gitu yaaah!?

click here for the news....

sebel deh gue....
ya jangan salahin sapa2 dan jangan heran kalo Tuhan murka.. ;(
terlepas dari nggesernya lempengan2 benua yang menyebabkan gempa itu, mbok ya kita kembalikan ke diri masing2 biar tobat.... ihikkks.... banyak candi di situ, mbak... Jangan bikin kerjaan arkeolog tambah berat dwooonks!!!

Summer romance???

2006-05-29T09:21:00.000+07:00

glek!!
Summer romance in Deutschland? nyahaha... der Schatz kann nicht kommen. Hm, then i can flirt and look at other guys freely! ;) gyahahahaha... that fact really keeps me alive. but, i really need all the luck in the world to get through June 12 and 13! mein Gott..! Do i really have to do THAT!? hmmmmmmmmmm......... I just simply have no IDEA! Will they approve my proposal? Will i make it through the seminar?? Lieber Gott, please shower me with all the luck in the world this month! *hopes* Cant stop praying! ;)

Romance on June 06

2006-05-29T09:20:00.000+07:00

You're in a relatively receptive space on the 1st. You're enjoying the almost-summertime atmosphere, but you aren't losing your head. Instead, you're thinking about what it might be like to lose your heart. Is a heart, you wonder, as easy to retrieve as a pair of goggles, or a set of swim fins? Probably not. And where is the lost and found, anyway? You have a pretty good idea of which good-looking lifeguard to ask. On the 3rd or 4th, a run-in with this cutie (who's well-versed in first aid) makes you feel more in love than ever. And did they have an 'I'd like to resuscitate you' look in their eye? Could be -- you find out more on the 9th. The 10th and 11th are bonanza days, full of new beginnings. Did you sign up for the lifeguard training class? Very clever! Make your move on the 16th or 17th, even if you're wearing silly-looking swim fins. On the 21st, stay up late and enjoy the longest day of the year. Ride things out on the 26th. By the 30th, you're at a whole new flip-turning point.

June forecast

2006-05-29T09:15:00.000+07:00

On the 1st, you go into the month with a profound sense of your own creativity and the important role it plays in your ideas about the meaning of existence. Heavy stuff for this time of year? Not really -- the season of sunburns, sea salt and fresh-squeezed juice is an ideal time to make contact with life's regenerative and unfathomable side. By the 5th, you bring some real insight to a community problem, and on the 7th, 8th and 9th, you do the same for an issue at work. On the 13th, you see (maybe in a fresh, sea-salt-and-sunburn kind of way) how you can change an old habit that isn't helping you now. Spend the morning of the 18th on the phone with a friend who needs a push to get through a difficult phase. On the 23rd, take the day off and play hooky in the great outdoors if you can. Let your creativity run wild on the 28th. It will lead you to all kinds of interesting new places.

Human Origins Patrimony in Southeast Asia

2006-05-29T09:08:00.000+07:00

yaaaaaaaaay!
i'd be going to Germany, to Frankfurt to be precise. ;)
Da, mache ich einen Excursionteil mit Leute von vielen Universitaeten.
the title of this excursion is "Ecology and evolution of Pleistocene hominids in Central Europe"

a bit from the website :

The Neandertal find at Mettmann near Duesseldorf in 1856 initiated the foundation of a then brandnew scientific discipline, palaeoanthropoloy. Soon it turned out that the strange human with his peculiar anatomy was not an isolated individual but a representative of the early inhabitants of Central Europe.

In summer 2006 we will follow their traces and visit our hominid predecessors at home. We are taking advantage of the memorable 150th anniversary of the Neandertal find at the Neander valley. We will visit renowned sites like Mauer an der Elsenz (near Heidelberg), Reilingen, Steinheim an der Murr (near Heilbronn), Late Pleistocene sites at the Swabian Alp, at Weimar-Ehringsdorf, Bilzingsleben, Schöningen and finally the Neander valley itself. On the occasion of the commemorative exhibition at the Rhenian State Museum in Bonn we will have the unique opportunity to inspect and compare Neandertals and their predecessors.

Recent interdisciplinary researches resulted in a new picture of the Neandertal and its everyday life. We are joining with students from the Institut Teknologi Bandung (Indonesia) and compare early inhabitants of Central Europe and Southeast Asia.

hmm..... gehe ich nach Deutschlaaaand!Endlich!!! nyahahahaha.... ;)

waduuhhhhhhhhhh

2006-05-12T07:04:00.000+07:00

tak ada bantaian yang kuterima...
cecep sangat kooperatif kok... hehee.... mgkn dia sadar gw sdh *melamar* dia jd pembimbing gw... ato, mgkn emang dia lagi kooperatif ajah.

Sabtu - Minggu ini bakal dihabiskan LAGI di kampus yang akhirnya fed-up bgt gw datengin. Hmm, ngga bisa ngisi banyak neh... karena ik jg harus ke kampus. Blom mandi lagi...

capeeek!!!!

2006-05-10T07:56:00.000+07:00

gw lagi sangat amat bingung!
1. Bingung, gmana menerjemahkan dan menata kalimat dengan baik dan benar untuk analisis kontekstual yang diperlukan dalam metode penelitian skripsi gw!
2. Bingung, kok everything falls outta place ya? Padahal gw sudah meletakkan dengan baik?
3. Bingung, kok Lateks gitu2 ajaaa?? ngga ada perkembangan yang signifikan, yang bikin gw tambah ilfil ama KKL nanti
4. Bingung, apakah nama gw masuk dalam daftar org2 yang pergi KKL?
5. Bingung, kenapa gw memutuskan untuk menjauhkan cinta itu?
6. Bingung, gmana menerjemahkan perasaan gw yang makin ngga jelas bahasanya!

di depan gw sekarang lagi bersandar Fundamentals of Archaeology, menanti untuk dibaca dengan lekas! dan Cecep pun menanti di ruang kelas untuk *membantaaaaiiii*
aaaaaaaaaaaaaarrrgh!!!!

pertemuan hati

2006-05-03T08:25:00.000+07:00

bintang malam katakan padanya
aku ingin melukis sinarmu di hatinya
embun pagi katakan padanya
biar kudekap erat waktu dingin membelenggunya

bintang malam sampaikan padanya
aku ingin melukis sinarmu di hatinya
embun pagi katakan padanya
biar kudekap erat waktu dingin membelenggunya

tahukah engkau wahai langit
kuingin bertemu membelai wajahnya
kan kupasang hiasan angkasa yang terindah
hanya untuk dirinya

lagu rindu ini kuciptakan
hanya untuk bidadari hatiku tercinta
walau hanya nada sederhana
izinkan kuungkap segenap rasa dan kerinduan - kerispatih

ini lagu sangat mengingatkan gw akan saat pertama bertemu hati dengannya. sebenernya itu bukan perjalanan pertama gw ama dia. tapi, sesuatu membuatnya makin berkesan. sesuatu yang gw pikir cuma cinlok... TERNYATA BUKAN.

menjauhlah!!!

2006-05-03T08:07:00.000+07:00

ingin kuakui cinta yang kau beri
ingin kuakhiri sepi dan sendiri
siapa yang mengerti perih dalam hati
ingin kuakhiri pahitnya misteri
hasrat untuk tepiskan semua kenyataan
dan seribu bayangan hilang
cinta itu menjauhlah!
tinggalkanlah aku sendiri
cinta itu musnahkanlah
karena kau satu-satunya ...
cinta itu menjauhlah
tinggalkanlah aku sendiri
cinta itu musnahkanlah
karena kau satu-satunya yang kucintai - Astrid

terlalu percuma....

2006-04-29T07:57:00.000+07:00

Who said that every wish would be heard
and answered when wished on the morning star?
Somebody thought of that and someone believed it.
Look what it's done so far.

terlalu percuma sekarang aku selalu merasa terluka
dan tetap mempertahankan luka itu terbuka menganga
mengundang setiap lalat untuk hinggap di atasnya,
membuatnya makin perih dan mengiris...

terlalu kecil serpihan cintaku untuk dikumpulkan
dan disatukan kembali
bahkan oleh seseorang yang kuharapkan

sudahlah, biarkan saja aku terluka
dan menangis
mencoba mengais serpihan cintaku yang berantakan
perekat apa yang harus aku gunakan?!

tuhan,
pagi ini aku menangis lagi...

Rainbows are visions, but only illusions,
and rainbows have nothing to hide.
So we've been told and some choose to believe it.
I know they're wrong, wait and see.

tuhan,
katakan alasannya...
tunjukkan aku mengapa!!
tenangkan aku,
katakan dengan apa semua airmataku akan berbalas?

suaraku serak meneriakkan perasaanku
hatiku perih terus menerus ditetesi airmata yang bercampur kerasnya takdir
apa daya amarahku tak tersampaikan!
apa daya cintaku tak terhantarkan...
apakah aku akan mati tanpa cinta?

may 2006 love forecast

2006-04-29T07:17:00.000+07:00

Hmmm. Have you been pining for an old love for a little too long? Are you ready to pick a few wild roses and sniff them, and then inhale all the fresh spring air as deeply as possible? Maybe you'd like to throw your arms up and say something like, 'Yes, world, you're beautiful, and yes, the person who always sits in front of me on the bus to work is beautiful, too. And I am going to ask them out!' Okay, do it! You can even roar a little after you've said that (as long as there aren't any little children around who might be scared). Then you might want to roar again when things really start going your way, especially on the 5th, 6th or 7th, and again on the 13th, 14th or 15th. Roaring feels good, doesn't it? You might have a romantic experience that banishes all shadows of lovers past on the 21st, 24th, 25th or 26th. So your keep your eyes and arms open! On the 31st, why not find some creative outlet to express how you feel?

may 2006 forecast

2006-04-29T07:15:00.000+07:00

You might spend the 1st of the month reflecting on just how much your loved ones mean to you. If you're in a relationship, reserve a special hour or two for thinking about your honey bunny. If you're single, spend that time focusing on a strategy for winning the heart of the cutie you have your eye on. Heck, it's springtime, and you're charming -- you've got a good chance of success! On the 7th, you spend a good chunk of time just enjoying the beauty of the season. You have this whole 'living' thing down pretty well, don't you? On the 13th, get ready for a 'wow' afternoon. Is that cutie sharing fruit smoothies with you at the French cafe on the corner? On the 17th, you make something work. On the 21st, you're patient with someone, and this person really, really appreciates it. Looks like the next smoothie is their treat! You get outdoors on the 23rd and feel great about it. On the 27th, just enjoy the tweet, tweet of the birds.

someone stepped outta my dreams!

2006-04-28T08:07:00.000+07:00

You
Stepped out of a dream,
You are too wonderful
To be what you seem.

Could there be eyes like yours?
Could there be lips like yours?
Could there be smiles like yours,
Honest and truly?

You
Stepped out of a cloud,
I want to take you away from the crowd,
And have you all to myself,
Alone and apart.
Out of a dream
Safe into my heart.

You
Stepped out of a cloud,
I want to take you away
Away from the crowd,
And have you all to myself,
Alone and apart.
Out of a dream,
Safe into my heart...
Wa-dee-la-la
Out of a dream!

[pscccht : well, someone's trying to step out of my dreams... *winks* love youuuu!!]

your love is king...

2006-04-26T06:48:00.000+07:00

Your love is king,
Crown you in my heart.
Your love is king,
Never need to part.
Your kisses ring,
Round and round and round my head.
Touching the very part of me.
It's making my soul sing.
Tearing the very heart of me.
I'm crying out for more.

Your love is king,
Crown you in my heart.
Your love is king.
You're the ruler of my heart.
Your kisses ring,
Round and round and round my head.
Touching the very part of me.
It's making my soul sing.
I'm crying out for more.
Your love is king.

I'm coming up, i'm coming.
You're making me dance, inside.

Your love is king,
Crown you in my heart.
Your love is king,
Never need to part.
Your kisses ring,
Round and round and round my head.
Touching the very part of me.
It's making my soul sing.
Tearing the very heart of me.
I'm crying out for more.

Touching the very part of me.
It's making my soul sing.
I'm crying out for more.
Your love is king.

This is no blind faith
This is no sad and sorry dream.
This is no blind faith
Your love...
Your love is real... gotta crown me with your heart,
Never, never need to part,
Touch me.
Never letting go,
Never letting go,
Never going to give it up.
I'm coming,
You're making me dance...

cinta tanpa syarat

2006-04-26T06:18:00.000+07:00

Dayu berkata : "Cinta itu tak bersyarat ...kasih!!..and i survive most of all a broken heart.."
Kubalas : "Aku memilih untuk terluka, Dayu. Agar cintaku bersimbah darah segar... agar diingat selalu setiaku, walau penuh dengan luka.."

kurasa Dayu akan terdiam...!

Doa

2006-04-23T11:57:00.000+07:00

selamat malam,Tuhan...
atas izinMu, aku makin mencintainya dengan sepenuh hati.
Aku masih mengingatnya, mencoba membiasakan hati dengan keadaanku, Tuhan...
Tapi hatiku terus berteriak keras, melengking memekakkan telingaku sendiri...

aku makin mencintainya, Tuhan

tampunglah airmata tangisku ini, Tuhan...

dengar dan kabulkan jeritanku, Tuhan..

aku ingat, aku berdoa dalam lara

aku ingat tangisku

yang mungkin tak akan pernah tergantikan

tumpah ruah semuanya

layaknya hancur terinjak dengan sengaja

aku ingat, aku berdoa dalam lara

karena malam ini tangisku kembali pecah setelah sekian lama tertahankan, tangis yang masih bercerita tentang sosok yang sama -

Taman Prasasti.... joooou!!!

2006-04-16T22:05:00.000+07:00

niy yaaa... kali ini bener2 deeh... Wari harus jadi jalan ke Taman Prasasti!! Kalo enggak... tau deh kapan lagi... Udah gw juga di postpone ke Bandung nyaa.... *hiiigs*

Hmm, agak telat siiy, tapi gw lagi baca DaVinci Codes. A really page turning! Cant wait to buy the Angels and Demons serie. I dislike the Indonesian version, weird translation. So, i chose the English/original version. ;) There are so many things about things i like that i dont really notice until i read it on dVC...! Very interesting!

Oh ok.... i am gonna jump and read again, after working on those permission letters for Lateks 2006, which will be held on Aoril 24th to May 21st, 2006.

Tomorrow's just another day around!! ;)

Hunting hunting hunting hunting, yeahh!!!

Quick Dream Facts from dreemmoods.com

2006-04-16T09:40:00.000+07:00

1. One third of our lives is spent sleeping.
2. In your lifetime, you would've spent about 6 years of it dreaming. That is more than 2,100 days spent in a different world.
3. Dreams have been here as long as mankind. Back in the Roman Era, striking and significant dreams were submitted to the Senate for analysis and interpretation.
4. Everybody dreams. EVERYBODY! Simply because you do not remember your dream does not mean that you did not dream.
5. Dreams are indispensable. A lack of dream activity can mean protein deficiency or a personality disorder.
6. We dream on average of one or two hours every night. And we often even have 4-7 dreams in one night.
7. Blind people do dream. Whether visual images will appear in their dream depends on whether they where blind at birth or became blind later in life. But vision is not the only sense that constitutes a dream. Sounds, tactility, and smell become hypersensitive for the blind and their dreams are based on these senses.
8. Five minutes after the end of the dream, half the content is forgotten. After ten minutes, 90% is lost.
9. The word dream stems from the Middle English word, dreme which means "joy" and "music".
10. Men tend to dream more about other men, while women dream equally about men and women.
11. Studies have shown that our brain waves are more active when we are dreaming than when we are awake.
12. Dreamers who are awakened right after REM sleep, are able to recall their dreams more vividly than those who slept through the night until morning.
13. Physiologically speaking, researchers found that during dreaming REM sleep, males experience erections and females experience increased vaginal blood flow - no matter what the content of the dream. In fact, "wet dreams" may not necessarily coincide with overtly sexual dream content.
14. People who are giving up smoking have longer and more intense dreams.
15. Toddlers do not dream about themselves. They do not appear in their own dreams until the age of 3 or 4.
16. If you are snoring, then you cannot be dreaming.
17. Nightmares are common in children, typically beginning at around age 3 and occurring up to age 7-8.
18. In a poll, 67% of Americans have experienced Deja Vu in their dreams, occurring more often in females than males.

what do your dreams mean?

2006-04-15T09:52:00.000+07:00

do you dream in colors?
or do you dream in black and white?

Each dreams are unique. No other individual can have your background, your emotions, or your experiences. Every dream is connected with your own "reality". Remember that a dream unifies the body, mind, and spirit. It provides you with insight into ourselves and a means for self-exploration. In understanding your dreams, you will have a better understanding and discovery of your true self.

Types of Dreams

* Daydreams; daydreaming is classified as a level of consciousness between sleep and wakefulness.

* Lucid Dreams; Lucid dreams occurs when you realize you are dreaming.

* Nightmares; A nightmare is a disturbing dream that causes the dreamer to wake up feeling anxious and frightened. Nightmares may be a response to real life trauma and situations.

* Recurring Dreams; Recurring dreams repeat themselves with little variation in story or theme.

* Healing Dreams; Healing dreams serve as messages for the dreamer in regards to their health.

* Prophetic Dream; Prophetic dreams, also referred to as precognitive or pyschic dreams, are dreams that seemingly foretell the future.

* Signal Dream

* Epic Dream

the history

Dream interpretations date back to 3000-4000 B.C. where they were documented on clay tablets.In the Greek and Roman era, dreams were often seen in a religious context and messages from the gods. Temples, called Asclepieions were built around the power of dreams. The Egyptians recorded their dreams in hieroglyphics. People with particular vivid and significant dreams were believed to be blessed and were considered special. The Chinese believed that the soul leaves the body to go into this world. However, if they should be suddenly awakened, their soul may fail to return to the body. During the Middle Ages, dreams were seen as evil and its images were temptations from the devil.

so, what are your dreams mean?

you can be your own psychic through dream analysis.

try to surf around dreemmoods.com. ;)

source : dreemmoods.com

is it true???

2006-04-14T21:54:00.000+07:00

is it true : that Paris is the city of love? city for lovers? does love really happens there? will i ever experience Parisienne love?

Paris is one of the most romantic cities in the world. The city of Paris offers a rich cultural and touristic life covering all the majors artistic disciplines. The many museums of Paris are fascinating gateways to knowledge, creation and human adventure. There are the"greats" which give the visitor the opportunity to see some of the greatest works of art ever created by human genius. There are the "classics", the former artists' Paris is one of the European capitals which has the greatest number of parks, woods and gardens.Here are the main woods and gardens of Paris, and also the cemeteries like Père Lachaise, which is the biggest park in town...

What is it about Paris that makes people go crazy about falling in love in Paris? why Paris? is it so romantic? Why didn't i know it? Is it becuz i have never been to Paris? or... maybe becuz i have never fallen in love before?!

Parisienne fashion est tres chic! will i ever fit if i live there? why the heck am i talking about this? i am not even going to France?! Heh...

I have these certain thoughts of continuing the long stories written by me. and i thought that maybe i would move the scenes up to Paris, instead of using London over time, and Dublin since the story started. I thought Paris would be a perfect place where it would be the new start for my characters.

So, what do you think of Paris?

sources: visiting in paris, Paris For Lovers, gettyimages

Java Jazz pictures

2006-04-14T21:25:00.000+07:00

i hope it is not too late to update you all with the pictures i took on Java Jazz.. *lol* i knooow.... it's DARN late!!!, but anyway... here they go! click on it to view larger version. ;)

now, i have been so lucky to get on the front row when SOVA was on the stage. Dinda pursued me and Anne to go earlier to their stage, and the singer recognized us from the Java Jazz pre-Event on Citos earlier on the week.

and on incognito!! man, are they crazy or what? i dont get the front row, not even near the stage to take nice pictures :P flood of human atacking the Exhibition Hall as they play. *eeeck*